part of me | fillie

quatorze |;| half my heart

_noahs_pov_

"hey man, what's up?" my friend caleb said as he approached my table in the school cafeteria.

"i'm eating lunch." i retorted sarcastically.

"where's millie? i thought she always sat with you." he questioned. just hearing her name made my blood boil.

"she broke up with me for no damn reason." i answered as i clenched my fist.

"w-well, i mean, you were kind of mean to her at times..." he replied. i banged my fist on the table.

"shut up! i treated her like a princess." i defended.

there was a bit of an awkward silence as we continued to eat our lunch. i kept thinking about what caleb had said. maybe i wasn't always nice to her, but i still think shouldn't have broke up with me. i cried for nearly two hours after she ended our relationship. 

we were almost done with our food when i saw a young girl with short brown hair walking towards the table. i gritted my teeth when i realized who it was.

"hi caleb. h-hi noah." she said shyly. i felt like i was gonna throw up. i just wanted her to go away.

"hey mil-" before caleb could finish, i cut him off.

"what the hell do you want?" i scoffed.

"i was wondering if you could meet me in the schoolyard after school?" she asked. i sighed.

"ugh, sure. whatever." i retorted. she smiled and walked away. i was going to tell her to screw off, but i kind of wanted to see her pretty face for at least five minutes.

i just wanted the school day to end so i could know what millie wanted. each class seemed so fucking long. after the last class of the day, the bell rang and school was let out. i rushed through the bustling hallways and made my way out the main exit. i walked outside and saw millie sitting on a wooden bench looking at her phone.

"uh, hey." i said as i approached her. she looked up at me and slipped her phone into her pocket.

"hey, i've uh missed you." she replied. i rolled my eyes at her statement.

"yeah, sure. what do you want?" i asked.

"i wanted to know if you'd take me back." she said as she stood up to face me. my eyes widened.

i didn't know what to say. i wanted her back, but i was scared that she'd just break up with me and shatter my heart again. 

"so, what do yo-" before she could finish, i put my lips on hers. it was a short and soft kiss, only lasting a matter of seconds.

"yeah, alright. i'll take you back, but you're mine. don't talk to other boys. do you understand?" i stated a few seconds after ending the kiss. she slowly nodded her head.

"i-i have to go home now. i guess i'll see you tomorrow." she said as she began to walk away. 

"alright, bye." i replied.

after that encounter, i realized something. i love millie with half my heart and i fucking despise her with the other half.