hate to love you.

seventeen

ugh. it's six in the morning.

you know what else is today? school.

remember when i used to be able to wake up in the morning for school and be happy because i could easily go to school and not worry about anything?

yeah, well my anxiety is higher than ever.

"babes? what do you want for breakfast?" dallas asked.

i debated before actually answering, "some toast would be fine." i answered.

she smiled and nodded.

i chose an outfit that's not too flashy or too lame, but then i realized that i needed to keep my scars covered.

i decided on some leggings, a black long-sleeved shirt, and some sperry's. i put my hair up into a ponytail and decided not to do my make up.

i rather not put anything on my face to fool someone on the first day of school.

not trying to brag, but i'm pretty regardless.

i rushed downstairs with my notebooks, bag, and everything else.

i was going to watch a bit of tv since i was early, but decided not too.

idk, only because... dallas was burning the kitchen up!

"damn, dallas! i know demi can't cook, but you too?" i said waving the smoke out of my face.

"sorry!" she yelled coughing. she reached into her back pocket, "here's a twenty, buy something at school, get in the car, i'll be out." i took it and nodded.

"oh, and gabi?" she said. i went back and looked at her.

"put on some perfume, i don't want you smelling like a burnt piece of toast." she said kind of laughing.

i went upstairs in dallas' room and grabbed some perfume. hmm she has a good taste in perfume.

i walked outside to the car and sat and waited for her, she shortly joined me and started the car.

"so much for starting the day with a great breakfast." we both laughed.

"so uhm, do you want to talk about what happened last night?" she asked.

i tensed up remembering the events that happened yesterday, "no." i replied.

she pulled up to school and parked outside.

"make sure that you have a good day, don't get in trouble, and if you have any problems, someone is hurting you or bullying you, make sure you call me. i'll be here, love you babygirl." she said smiling.

i smiled back, "well, aren't you a proud mom." we laughed, "okay, see you later, dally. love you too." i said before hugging her and getting out of the car.

"take off that sweatshirt it's hot!" she yelled.

i turned around and rolled my eyes.

walking into the schools felt like i had entered a whole new atmosphere.

i decided to keep to myself and not even try to make friends. all people do is hurt me.

i managed to find my way to the main office and grab my schedule.

"hi, gabriela gonzalez." i said.

"here you go, honey. here's your schedule, and your locker and combo, if you need any help, please don't hesitate to come and find me." the lady said smiling. i nodded.

i began to search for my locker, and it seemed like everyone was staring at me. i got nervous.

why?