hate to love you.

fifty

i woke up to snoring.

but, the cute kind. nick was sleeping next to me, and he looked adorable. it's amazing how feelings work.

i decided to go downstairs and make waffles, since he made breakfast for us yesterday.

walking down the stairs, i noticed how badly out of shape i was. maybe, i'll go downstairs and work out sometime.

yes, i know i'm comfortable here.

i was in the middle of making the batter when the doorbell rang. i opened the door, and saw phil standing there.

i rolled my eyes.

"where's nick." he said.

"upstairs." i said. he tried to move past me, but i stopped him. "what the hell are you doing?" he said. "letting him sleep in peace." i said.

he groaned. "listen, kid. move out of m-" he began to yell, but nick came out of the room and stood at the top of the stairs.

"phil, man. don't yell at her." nick said. he came and wrapped his arms around me.

phil shrugged and turned around and left slamming the door behind him. i guess, he didn't expect us to develop actual feelings.

"well, you woke up so the surprise is spoiled, but i was making waffles for us." i said pouting.

he smiled, "go ahead and surprise me. i'll go take a shower." he said running up the stairs before kissing my forehead.

it's been, what? a month before we started seeing each other, but we're nothing serious yet.

i ran down the steps to downstairs and began pouring the batter to make the waffles. while the waffles were cooking, i cut up strawberries in a bowl.

after putting the waffles on plates, i grabbed the nutella, and spread it over the waffle, and added the strawberries.

after, i poured confectioners sugar on top and added whipped cream.

i placed the plates on the table, and added some milk on the side in cups for both of us.

i'm surprised that i'm trying to eat lately. i've been doing good skipping meals lately.

nick hasn't noticed anything, because i've learned that purging actually works.

i washed the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen until i felt a pair of hands zap me on my sides.

"ahh!" i screamed holding my sides. i turned around and saw nick laughing at me. i smiled, and gave him a hug.

he walked over to the plates and his eyes fell right into the waffles. "this looks amazing! thank you!" he said before digging in.

he looked up when he was halfway done and noticed that i only ate a little bit.

"aren't you going to eat more?" he asked. i shook my head 'no'. i'm kind of full.

i thought he was on to me before he grabbed my plate and ate my waffles too making me laugh.

i went upstairs, took a quick shower and began to get dressed and prepare myself for today.

i threw on some sweatpants, a sweatshirt, some uggs, and some sunglasses along with a messy bun.

i walked back downstairs to see nick dressed with car keys in his hand watching t.v.

"you look cute." he said. "yeah, i know." i said laughing. he jokingly rolled his eyes.

"let's go get you a new phone, babe." he said. my cheeks turned red when he called me 'babe'.

i have to admit, its hot.

we pulled up to verizon and he grabbed my hand opening the doors for me to walk in.

"which one do you want?" he said.

"what do you have?" i asked him. he held up his matte black iphone seven s plus. i nodded.

i walked up to the counter, and peeked around to see if anyone was working there.

"hello?" i asked. then a girl appeared from out of the back. it was marissa. good thing i wore glasses.

"how may i help you?" she asked.

i had to deepen my voice a bit so that she wouldn't notice. "can i have the rose gold iphone seven s plus?" i asked.

she nodded and hopped to the back and brought the phone back out. she began to set it up when nick came over.
"nick?" marissa looked up and saw him.

"rissa! long time no see!" he said hopping over the counter and hugging marissa.

marissa turned back to me. "phone number?" she asked. i looked at nick and then back to rissa. "new one, please." i asked. she smiled and nodded.

after setting up my phone, nick headed back home after i added his number. he held my hand through the whole drive.

as we began to walk up to the house, i stopped him. "thank you, nick. for everything." i said.

he hugged me. "no problem, princess." he said. i rolled my eyes. "don't call me a princess." i said groaning.

"but, you're a princess in my world." he whined. i nodded as we walked into the house.

"plans for today?" i asked. he shrugged, "i was thinking we could just chill out today and watch some movies." he said. i nodded.

he sat down on the couch and i laid over him as he selected a movie. we didn't really bother with popcorn.

after the first movie, i sat up and cuddle into nick's chest. i must've fallen asleep it was so comfy.

i think, this is the place i want to be.

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i woke up to the sound of crying. i was still laying on nick, and he was hugging me very tight.

i sat up and wiped his tears away. why is he crying? "nick, why are you crying?" i said.

he looked at me and then down at my sleeves that had slip up while i was asleep.

i got up, and sat beside him.

"nic-" i started, but he cut me off.

"you're too beautiful to harm yourself. why? i don't know the reason, but you're worth it. i have a very close friend who used to self harm and it killed me every time i saw a new cut on her wrist. princess, tell me why." he said still crying.

"many, many reasons. i can't explain right now." i said. a tear slipped from my eye but he wiped it off before it could fall.

"i-i'm so-" i started, but he grabbed me and pulled me into a long and tight hug.

and, in that moment right there was where i knew he was the one.

"babe?" he asked. i looked up.

he moved me off of him and left upstairs before returning with a silver box.

"i was going to do this tomorrow, but i need you to know this." he said opening the box revealing a ring.

"claire stevens, i haven't felt like this for a while now, and now that you're with me, i feel complete. you're the most beautiful and caring princess that there could ever be. you've become a part of me, and i want you to stay. so, here is a promise ring for you to wear. will you be my girlfriend?" he asked me.

i began to tear up and nod my head.

"yes, nick. yes!" i said as he pushed the ring on my finger. he grabbed me and hugged me tight.

i pulled back and pressed my lips firmly onto his.

right now, i have to be the happiest girl out there.