so the video above was NOT made by me. My heart little spasmed on the "I wanna make you feel beautiful" scene like the video and just the song together agh I'm pathetic I know. But seriously watch the video who ever made it is amazballs .I got inspired to write this from the video so I hope y'all enjoy 💗
It was pouring. The sound of the rain pattering just made me feel worse about my shitty life. I have nothing. My friends are getting married and having children for god sake and I'm over here sleeping with a guy who's wife just died. Slut. That's what I thought of myself, after what happened with him. I just felt like a horrible human. Of course I enjoyed it while it lasted, but I had that built up feeling of guilt in my stomach. I took advantage of a guy who's grieving over the person he loves.
We haven't talked since. I want to talk to him. I desperately want to. But I can't. I can't go back there and look him in the eyes.
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I just finished pouring my self a glass of Rum and Coke when I heard a knock on my door.
I walked over to it, glass still and hand, and carelessly flung the door open.
"Toby!" I said surprised. "Wha...what are you doing here?"
"I came to talk, may I?"
"Yes of course, sorry." I said moving out of the way of the door. He was soaked. I sat my drink down and ran to go grab him a towel.
"Are you cold?" I asked "I can turn on the fire."
"No, I'll be okay. Thank you though."
"Of course." I said sitting down next to him.
"So what's up?"
"What...what are we?" He asked immediately.
"I don't know..." I whispered. That feeling rose up into my throat.
"That night. It felt right. You kissed me and I realized that I'd lost everything when I lost you. Sure, I met Yvonne. Which was great. But she wasn't you. I kept asking you when you'd go back to D.C. Nearly begging you too, because I couldn't hold back my feelings for you much longer. Every day I was here, it was harder not to just kiss you. I've had you so many times but somehow I want more. And when you kissed me that day I left. I sent you a text, well, I almost did. I started typing. Then just stopped. I wanted to scream off the top of my lungs that I love you. But I stupidly deleted it." I didn't know I was crying until I felt a warm tear drop on my hand. "Can we be us again? " he asked grabbing my hand. I nodded my head urgently. "Yes! Yes! I love you."
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Her eyes were closed. She was passed out cold on my chest. I was still trying to process this, I was still trying to process the fact that I have her back
I twisted a piece of her brunette hair around my finger. I always did this when we'd sleep together. I guess you could call it a habit.
"Your so beautiful," I whispered into her hair "and I know you're sleeping, but I know you needed that reminder. I know you haven't been treated right lately. But thats over with."
This girl, she will be loved.
