Charm Academy

Chapter 26: Ups And Downs

Luna's POV

Another day, I smiled up my ceiling. I looked beside me and stared at an undeniably handsome man. I know, I sounded stupid when I admitted he's handsome. I smiled and just stared at him. I thought of the kiss last night. The way he moves his lips against mine, the way his soft lips felt on mine, the heart melting way he shows that much passion for someone he doesn't even love. I felt it, in every move, the way I can easily match his rhythm. Hindi ko maintindihan ang naramdaman ko nung mga oras na yun. Bryan is a completely different person ever since he opened up to me in the balcony. I guess telling someone how you feel eases your heart and mind. Ako, hindi ko pa naopen up sa kanya ang talagang nararamdaman ko. How can I tell him if I don't even know what I feel? Pero sigurado ako, iba ang naramdaman ko sa halik ni Bryan compared sa halik ni Ethan. Ughhh why am I comparing them!? I shouldn't for the sake of their friendship. I ruined it once and I'm not going to ruin it again. Without thinking properly, I put a hand on his hair and continuously brush up the hair on his forehead with my thumb.

"You've changed a lot. I succeeded." I whispered. I slipped my arm under his and hugged his waist and scooch my head on his neck. He must've felt it as he hugged me too. I just sniffed his neck, he really smells good I swear.

"Bryan, I know you're awake now." I whispered then scooched my head further on his neck.

"Good morning sweetheart." He whispered and hugged me tighter.

"Good morning." I whispered against his neck.

"Sweetheart, sa buong katawan ko, inaamin ko, malakas ang kiliti ko sa leeg at tenga ko." Yung boses nya parang nagpipigil na tumawa. Natawa ako at nilayo ko ang ulo ko sa leeg nya.

"Bryan, hindi ka ba nacucurious sa nararamdaman ko?" I asked him.

"Bakit? Mahal mo na ba ako?" He joked.

"Hindi." I said sharply.

"Ngayon na nabanggit mo saakin, nacurious na ako." He answered truthfully.

"Just to clear things out, I don't love you. I'm not falling for you. This is still kinda like a pretend dating status. I don't take it seriously. The kisses mean nothing." I felt horrible saying those, but, it is what I feel.

"The kisses mean nothing? Luna every time I kiss you I just pour out everything I feel in that kiss. Kahit ba na sabihin ko na hindi kita mahal, I still make you feel the passion I have, why? Because you are important to me. How many times have I said that Luna? You've been a big part of my life, and I admit Luna, you took a special place in my heart. You took that place when anyone else wouldn't. Hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa maipaparamdam sayo yun. Sa tuwing yang mga labi na yan ay akin, kakaibang saya ang nararamdaman ko. Parang sa wakas nahanap ko na ang matagal ko ng hinahanap. It's kind of disappointing to hear from you that it doesn't mean anything because to me, it does. It means a lot to me." Now I felt really horrible. Tears fall down his face. Dahil sa mga sinabi nya, naiyak na rin ako. Hindi ko alam na ganun pala kahalaga sa kanya yun.

"I-I'm sorry." I sat up with him and wiped his tears. I held his face like an antique vase. I slowly close the space between us. I can taste the saltiness of his tears and mine. I felt a hand on my neck pulling me closer if that's even possible. He pull out and I frowned.

"Minsan wala akong maramdaman sa halik mo. I can't feel as much passion as I give to it. Yung ibang kiss ko sayo, pinagsisihan ko. Feeling ko, pinipilit kitang halikan ako. Sinubukan kong itagago ang sakit na naramdaman ko nung mga oras na yun. Nagiisip na nga ako na tapusin na ito. Ayaw na kitang nakikitang napipilitan ng dahil saakin." Sobra akong nasaktan sa mga sinabi nya. I didn't know he felt that way.