When A Bitch Falls In Love (On Going-TagLish)

Chapter 61: DEVOTEDLY WAITING

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"THE GOAL IS NOT TO CHANGE WHO YOU ARE, BUT TO BECOME MORE OF WHO YOU ARE AT YOUR BEST."

-AMETHYST-

It's been five days since that night with Melisa in Red's unit. 

After naming kumain nun, we immediately set to go home. I wasn't able to object when Red offered Melisa na ihahatid siya nito pauwi. Nawalan na ako ng gana pang makipag-away kay Red kaya tanging tango lang ang nagawa ko. Then, I went home on my own. May sasakyan naman ako eh. -_- 

I understand naman kahit konti. Melisa's poor. Kaya wala siyang sasakyan na mag-uuwi sa kanya kung saang basurahan man siya galing. And I bet, she's too poor to even afford a taxi. So I just let Red took her home.

I love doing 'kawang-gawa' sometimes.

Anyways, the last thing I remembered that night was that I went straight to my room and cried. Again.

Red and I are doing well in our practice. Every day, I would cook for him after our very tiring practice. Sa limang araw na yun, lalo akong nahuhulog sa kanya.

Lately, changes are taking place. 

At sa nagdaang mga araw, something changed in our relationship. 

Red is starting to open up to me. Rude parin siya pero hindi na gaya ng dati. 

And the best part is that he also started to care. I can feel it. Hindi ako nagfe-feeling o nag-iilusyon.  Every time we finish practicing, he would offer me towel and water. 

Because of him, I learned how to pretend. I pretended that I'm okay with our situation. Na hanggang kaibigan lang kami. 

I'm not okay.

I will never be okay with just being a friend. 

Sino nga bang tao ang nasa tamang pag-iisip ang magiging masaya kapag ang mahal mo ay hanggang kaibigan lang ang tingin sa kanya?

I wanted something more. 

Pero mahirap. Sobrang hirap.

Because of him, I learned how to keep my feelings to myself. And because of him, I learned how to wait. 

I know I'm on the right track. All I have to do is to make him feel my love and be patient. I will wait for him until he realizes how he feels. Hindi ko na sinasabi sa kanya ang mga nararamdaman ko. 

Natatakot ako sa lahat ng ginagawa kong mga hakbang. Natatakot ako na I'll drive Red away from me. Kaya lahat ng ayaw niya ay iniiwasan kong gawin.

 Tulad nalang ng magalit kay Melisa. Kahit ayoko sa kanya, I didn't object nang maisipan ni Red na isama minsan si Melisa sa practice namin. He wanted to let Melisa judge our presentation.