Second time is a Charm

Chapter 18

I was devastated, I felt nauseated , it was hard to breathe, the tears, were pouring from my eyes, blurring my vision and my legs turned to jelly, refusing to move. I collapsed onto the ground, and was taking deep breathes, with my head bowed my tears fell on the ground.

When I got closer to the conference room to retrieve my phone, I saw the door was partly open, and could hear people talking. As I came closer I recognized the voice. I know its not good manners to eaves drop, I was about to knock and let my presence be known when, I heard my name being mentioned. I stood still hearing their conversation and breaking a little by little.

I felt hands on my arms pulling me up, The familiar smell told me it was Thomas. He held me close as I sobbed. I never cried like this before. He held me tight and walked me to the car.

He drove around for a while, until I could calm down and my tears stopped.

"Feeling ok?" he asked turning towards me in the parked car.

I nodded wiping my face, still not looking at him. "I am sorry" I replied

"Nothing to be sorry about. Do you want to talk about it?" He asked. I said no shaking my head.

"Fine. How about that lunch, I am starving and you need a distraction." He offered. I nodded saying yes. I was in no mood to go back to work, and so messaged by boss that I was taking a half day off.

Lunch truly was a distraction. Thomas didn't ask me again about what happened, we just spoke about all the things we missed in each others lives over the past few year. It was nice and calming. It felt good to have Thomas back again.

I went home with a heavy heart, The way Gale spoke was very unnerving. Having a baby had to be a couples decision and my choice. I can't understand this need of his to control me, and every aspect of me. In the blind aim to satisfy his parents about me, he was trying to change the very essence of our relation.

I never cried like this in my entire life. I still can't understand why I cried. I just couldn't stop. I guess, hearing the way Edward and Gale spoke about me, was too hard to accept. I knew Edward didn't like me, but I hadn't expected him to call me a gold digger and tell Gale about the possibility of me having an affair. Thinking about all this, something suddenly striked me with something that Gale said.

I hurried the last few steps into my house, and ran up to my room and opened my bathroom cabinet and took out my birth control pills, I then opened the next months pills and compared the two. If we don't pay much attention they would look similar, but on close examination, I could see the difference. I took the pill from next month strip and tasted it. I was bitter and gave a very yucky after taste. I then tasted the current month pill. It was sweet like sugar and melted fast.

That broke me. I didn't cry, but felt so violated and disgusted at what Gale was trying to attempt. It was a week since I finished my periods, and unusual to our rotuine love making, Gale was insisting for it everyday last week, except for yesterday when I was mad at him. It was mostly me, who tried to entice him into anything physical in the bedroom, But lately, I was surprised at his actions. Now I know why? I would have agreed to a baby, if he would have asked me, but to go behind my back and pull a stunt like this was very disappointing.

I started to panic what if I was already pregnant. Not that I didn't want kids, but, I was only 22 and wanted to wait a couple years.

I took a deep breath to calm myself , then I asked the housekeeper to take the day off. I showered and waited for Gale to come home.