MOON RAGE (REVOLUTION)

UNFORGIVABLE

Maurinette slowly opens her eyes, her body feels heavy, she is still exhausted. She turns to rest on the left side of her body, facing the bed. Different thoughts run through her mind 'is he going to ask me to date him, or marry me. After all that just happened' he wakes her up from her train of thoughts
"Blue" she gently opens her eyes and now notices that he isn't on the bed with her but on the chair and he looks like he has not slept all night, he looks tired like he has been thinking about something, a flash of worry covers her face but quickly disappears when her eyes meet his blue sparkling eyes. She turns her face, embarrassed, she raises the blanket above her chest to over her lips
"How are you feeling?" she doesn't turn to face him, still terribly embarrassed. 'did he just ask me that, how should I feel? That was my first and surely I would feel different'
"I am really tired" she says, now turning to him "Darian" he locks his eyes with her, noticing the seriousness in the tone of her voice, he is surprised how her mood changes suddenly
"Blue, what is it?" he says gently, encouraging her to speak. She stares at him, his legs are crossed and an elbow leans on the chair's arm which supports his jaw. He isn't wearing his shirt, showing his perfectly tanned firm muscles. Her thoughts trail to how her hands were all over his muscles, it felt just like she imagined it to be. She always imagined him without his shirt almost everyday, She is helplessly love struck
He clears his throat and she turns away nervously, he let's out a chuckle
"What are we now?"
He stares at her, his almost lightened mood turning dark, he knows exactly what she means, he doesn't have to read her mind to know what she means. He had a memorable time with her, he would never forget that but is he really ready for this?. The relationship, the last time he had opened his heart to someone, she played with it, shattering it. Can he go through that again?
Even though he feels she is different from anyone he has ever met, she can't fit into everything, his kind of life. She is too fragile to be exposed to the hideous life of royalty and it's dangers. It seem like the best gift to an ordinary person but it is a pain, a curse which changes people, make them do the unimaginable but, what could he tell her?. He knows he would hurt her
"Blue, what do you mean?" his piercing gaze on her, begging her not to continue, not to say it. He doesn't want to tell her, he likes their friendly relationship although the event last night makes it seem like he is ready to take it further but she doesn't know he has other plans, other shameless evil plans.

"Are you going to date me, or marry---no, that is too soon--although what just happened---do you love me?" she trails off, she didn't make any sense, even to herself but she hope he would understand what she is trying to say, what she means. She really likes him and everything happening now, gives her hope that there is something magical between them, a fire which cannot be quenched. He makes her feel things she hadn't felt in her entire life
"Blue, how do I put this to you. Please understand me and know that I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I had no choice"
She is taken aback by the words which came out of his mouth? 'did he say all this is a mistake, pouring my heart to him is mistake. Am I hearing him clearly?' she tries to fight back the tears Which are threatening to pour, suddenly feeling exposed, she tightens the blanket around her body. He couldn't look at her, his eyes didn't meet hers. She feels like she is being hit with a jack hammer, like an arrow has pierced into her very being. She swallows the bile which threatens to spill, she is becoming light headed, faint. Her heart beats faster, painfully like it's going to rip out of her chest any time. She muffles the tears and in a tear threatening voice speaks "what do you mean, Darian?"

He sees no reason why he should hide it any more from her, it had been done, he cannot continue to lead her on, he would feel worse about himself. Right now he feels like the worst, heartless, cold, stupid, hell-sent thing on earth, here to destroy such a delicate and fragile person like Blue. He continues "your powers are locked from my hold, I need them but I can't get them. Your powers would change everything in this kingdom, help lives. Affira says that I can only get them from a vessel, a child, your child. That is why all this happened. I never planned on taking you as a wife or date you. I only needed the child. I am truly sorry if I led you on or if you feel like I used you but it had to be done" he bows his head, he feels like daggers are being thrown mercilessly at him, piercing into him, his soul, his heart. He knows he sounded harsh, cold and the very thought drives him insane. He has to say this, not to lead her on, so she could be able to get her life back after the child has being born. He wouldn't Hold her back in the kingdom. He wouldn't care what Hanos would say, he would take her far away where no one would harm her. He needs her to not love someone like him, a pitiable deranged person, a shell of the king, he has to do this. She has to find someone who would love her sincerely with all his heart, something he can't give her. He has to let her go, even though it kills hims