Falling Back #wattys2017

Chapter Eleven

"Good morning Dad!" I greeted as I went into the kitchen for breakfast

"Good morning Sarah" said my dad "Do you want to talk about last night?"

"What is there to talk about?"

"When you said that you have a crush on Mike"

Yeah, right, last night. The night when I confessed to my dad that I have a crush on Mike. I couldn't stop thinking about it last night. I really do have a crush on Mike. Mike wasn't my first crush. I must have had crushes on about five boys in my life. I did eventually get tired of them and I never had a boyfriend. I went on a few dates that didn't work out though.

Something about Mike was always different than everyone else. When I'm around him, I get this feeling that I never felt around anyone else. I felt like myself

Part of me is still worried about history repeating itself. It seems like the same events that happened to my poor mother is going to happen to me. If I get married, I really want to experience raising kids. I remember two nights ago when I was babysitting those kids in the orphanage, I had a special feeling that maybe in the future, I would like kids to take care of. How could I take care of kids if I'm dead?

Maybe having a crush on Mike is okay. As long as we don't get married and have a future together, nothing bad could happen to me. Mike probably doesn't even like me back. So why am I worried? He could break my heart anyways. Oh, right, that could happen. Although my gut was telling me that that won't happen. Weird, huh?

"Do you really believe that history could repeat itself?" I asked

Dad was hesitant as he stopped drinking his coffee and shrugged "I don't know sweetie. I saw Mike last night. He just reminded me so much of myself when I was his age. The sarcasm, the scowl, I remember your mother teaching me the electric slide when we were at a party. I have to admit I'm worried about that"

Great, Dad just resurrected my fears from the dead, making me even more petrified

"How do I prevent history from repeating itself?" I asked

"You could stop the mission right here" suggested Dad "He seems happy enough not to kill himself" that's the most nuttiest thing I have ever heard

"If I stop the mission, I'm going to hell. I have no choice Dad, I have to do this. I just don't want to die. Maybe this is all superstition"

Dad just shook his head as if he was saying "You can believe that but it's actually something else". He looked very suspicious. Maybe it wasn't just a sad twist of fate

"Why did mom die of childbirth?" I asked

It was as if I gave Dad a verbal slap in the face. He immediately almost formed tears in his eyes as if he was rehashing the whole thing. I hated to bring it up if it's going to make him this upset

"Your mother didn't die because her body couldn't deliver babies" started Dad "She was a very young, healthy woman. She died because of Olga"

"Olga?! Who's Olga?!"

This couldn't have been good. Maybe Olga was the villain that Steve was warning me about. I hated Olga the second I heard of her. How dare she take my mom's life at age twenty two. There's nothing I wanted to do more at that moment than punch this Olga person in the face

"Olga was a devil" said Dad "You see, your mother also was sent back in time thirty days by mistake and she knew Steve too. Steve was also going to throw her in hell. In order for her not to go to hell, she had to save me from committing suicide"

"You were about to commit suicide?!"

"At one point of my life, I did want to kill myself"

At that moment, my mind was blown. Part of me wondered if my mind exploded in Dads face and I had to clean it up. That's how shocked I was. Dad seemed so happy, so glad to live. How could he want to kill himself? Was he really that depressed at one point? It must have been so much pressure for Mom to have his life rest on her shoulders. Right, and I have Mike's life resting on my shoulders so I know how that feels