Difficult relationship

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Uploading today because I feel like the parts have been short

Jesse

I follow Lisa upstairs trying to get her to think it was nothing but she didn't fall for it. "Lisa it was nothing" I yanked her towards me and start to kiss her.

It was hard to get her to pay attention to me. One minute her eyes were on me the next they were down the hall. "Just wait a sec Jesse" she gently pushes me off and continues walking.

She opens every door on her house. She looked in every room, while I sat there against a wall. After minutes on deadly silence she finally comes back to me. "I found this" she put a shoe in my face... it wasn't graces though. Like at all... this shoe is about 5 inches longer. "Somebody broke into my house"

Well duh. But was it GRACE?

It took me hours to calm her down. "I have to go" I say as I stand but she grabs my hand. She stands beside me and starts begging for me to stay. "I really can't"

"Stay, or else" she went from scared to feared. She wanted me to her self. She doesn't want to share, she's crazy.. she's me ?

I yank away from her. "You can't use that against me this whole year. What are you going to do when we graduate?" I was pissed. Who the fuck does she think she is? I was so caught up in being angry I didn't notice I had her by the neck. "How the fuck do you think I got that record? eBay?"

As my grip increased she struggled to breathe. Thinking back to my past hurts me in so many ways. "I didn't mean to hurt others, I just WANTED the money" I released her making her collapsed on the floor. "I-I'm .."

"GET OUT!" She shouts as she backs away from me.

I grab my stuff and leave. She shouldn't of fucked with me. When I got in the car I realized how dumb I am. "STUPID! STUPID!" I shout as I drive off. Hitting and pushing the steering wheel. "How could I be that dumb?" What if she puts the article all over the school...

When I got to Graces house I was calm. I'm cleaning my hands of Lisa's bullshit and breathing in Graces positivity. "Sooo you liked my plan?" She ask as soon as I laid on her bed.

"The big shoe was your doing?" When I asked then it was silent. "Never mind.."

"Anyway, this is what I found" just as she was about to hand me the papers she tightens her grip. "First! Promise you won't get mad" I glared at her. Soon she got the hint that I wasn't promising shit. she drops papers on the bed and backs away.

Backing away is a good idea right about now. When I read those first few papers I wanted to kill Lisa. My blood started to boil, my hands were so tightly fisted that my fingers started to hurt. "She had multiple stds?"

"Did you guys?..." she stopped her sentence with an obvious face. "You need to go get tested"

"No shit" I slam the papers on the bed. Instead of leaving me BE she hugged me. She rubs her fingers on through my hair and brings my face close to her stomach. As crazy as it is.. that calmed me faster then any thing.. faster then expected. "Nothing can get worst then that"

"There's more.." she pulls the papers towards us and moves the ones I already read. "It gets better"

"She's been to rehab ? For drug, and alcohol use... wow" I felt bad.. if you've ever met Lisa you wouldn't think she was a druggie... or an recover druggie. "I mean this is bad.. but. Not enough for what she has on me" I sigh. If only she knew.