Difficult relationship

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Grace

As I walked into the school I prepared myself for all the mess about to come my way. The stuff with Lisa, the Beth girl, Darius, and there's no telling what Jesse has been up to. Everything just rushed back to my mind, and to top it off Jesse was no where to be found. I know she lives across the street but I thought I'd wait to see her here, but epic fail.

"Welcome back" I turn and see Lisa with a smile on her face. Her hair was in a high pony tail and her skirt was short as usual. "How was the visit.. ya'know from Jesse?" My eyes widened. How do she know about that?!?

"Excuse me?" I ask as I approach her up close and personal. She grinned then whispered. "I know everything, do you?" And With that statement she walked away. What does that mean? I walked to home room and sat in the far back by my self. Lorenzo and Chrissy sat with each other and acted as if I never existed. Fine.

As the hour passed I waited to see her. Nothing! No show, not one text message, or call. So after school I decided to pay her a visit. "Where is she?" I ask Henry. But as usual He looks lost, but why?

He scratched his head, and looked around. "She hasn't been here since last night, I thought she was with you" he looked concerned. How would he know I came back last night? Even if she did know she's probably out doing god knows what. I stormed off and made my way home. I'm done with everybody at this point.

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The next day I decided not to go to school, and the day after that, and the next thing I know I just wasn't going. I just wanted to sit home and be at peace. No body bothered to call me not shocked about it. Chrissy and I haven't even made eye contact since we left the trip. Lorenzo gave me little concerned looks whenever he seen me, but never approached me.

I noticed Ashley rushing throughout the house, packing clothes looking for other things. "What are you doing?" I asked as I Enter her room. She didn't make eye contact with me, just kept packing.

"You need to go to Dino's grocery store and get food, I'll be out for a week. That's the closest grocery store and you'll need food." Ashley says as she closed her bag. "I have business to take care of in LA, please go to school and get an education" she kissed my cheek and left leaving the doors open for me to close. Once I felt the fresh air rush past me I couldn't do anything but smile. This week has been so peaceful and now Ashley's leaving me alone.

I grab the money and got dressed. I'm a pretty good cook and I'm glad I'll be able to make what I want instead of eating her slop. When I got to the grocery store two pretty girls smiled at me and asked did I need help. "No thank you.. uh Katy and justice"

I walked past them and to the meat section which is at the back of the store. I smelt weed and heard giggling from one of the rooms in the back. I didn't want to be noisy but does their boss knows what's going back here ?

I stopped snooping when I heard the door open  "I'm about to go get your sub, stay there" that voice sounded so familiar. I watched as they walked straight past me and out of no where I felt that anger come out of me. I was about to call her name when the girl beside her grabbed a hold of her hand. Jesse looked down at her hand and did this fake smile. I could sense it but why fake it ? The girl looked around then tried to kiss her but she quickly backed away. "I'll be back" with that she walked away.

My heart started to ache but not to the point where I wanted to chase her. I should've seen this coming. "Can I help you?" I look up and see the girl smiling at me. I looked at her name tag. Payton..

"Uh.. no" I smiled then walked away. I left without buying anything. I just needed to leave, I didn't need an explanation any more. I didn't care for one, the way things ended on the ship I thought we'd been past the point of just talking but I guess it was all fake.

I was so caught up in my thought I dumped into someone on my way out. "Im sorry.." I look up and see Jesse looking shocked as I was. "Oh it's you" I say as I try to walk past her but She grabbed a hold of me and turned me towards her. "Your here, your really here?" She pulled me into her arms and kissed my forehead. "I've missed you, we need to talk.. soon" when she finally released me I didn't say anything I just walked away. "Grace!" She kept calling out. I paid her no mind.
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I laid back against my bath tub and watched the soapsuds float all around me. I closed my eyes and thought about the trip. Chrissy and Audrey.. I wonder if there still talking. Maybe she didn't talk to her to make me jealous, but it could be genuine.

On my way to my room I noticed a shadow downstairs in my kitchen. I slowly pulled out a golf club from my dads bag and made my way downstairs. No clothes on, just a towel. Just as I was about to swing the club I noticed how familiar the guys shape was. "She has no spicy mustard, how am I going to eat this now?" He complained.

The only person I know who complains about me running out of spicy mustard is.. "Lorenzo?" He turned around in shock but smiled. "What are you doing here?" I asked as I looked around for Chrissy. I wanted to ask was he robbing me but I didn't want to bring up the arrest I caused. "Eating" he said like I invited him here. We weren't even talking. "I knocked but you didn't answer.. so I got a little worried, but then" he looked at his sandwich. "I got hungry"

I sat the club down then hugged him. "I've missed you" He put his sandwich down then smiled at me. "I know It seems like I'm avoiding you but you know how Chris is, she wants to talk to you but doesn't know how" we've been friends for years, that's not an excuse.

"It's fine, I just want to go back to the life I had before. Boring with the two friends I actually have" I let out. "I miss her" I spoke but didn't want to say that.
Just as he was about to talk I hear a knock at my door. "See? You can hear but you can't hear it" he says eating his sandwich. "Besides we're closer then that, I can just walk in your house" he thought.

"No you can't" I shout while I rush to the door. When I opened it in comes Jesse examining my body in the towel.

"Why are you naked?" She asked while looking around. I didn't answer, just let her wonder. A few seconds later Lorenzo walks in with his mouth full. "Why is he here? While your naked?" Lorenzo's eyes widened. "What are you doing here?" She asked him In anger. He tried to chew faster but the bread was to thick.

Jesse was about to step to him as if she doesn't know he's obviously into men. "He's gay" I say as I push her back towards the door. "What are you doing here?" I ask in confusion. I fixed my towel then folded my arms. She has a lot nerve coming here.

"I'm gonna go, we can talk another time" Lorenzo whispers then rushes out. On his way out he looks at Jesse and smiles. "Good luck, you'll need it"

She looked back at me and tried to come in but I didn't let her. "Can I come in?" I didn't answer. "Please" I moved aside and let her in. I closed the door and watched as she made her way to my couches. "What do you want?" I ask while walking towards her. She had her head down not really acknowledging me. "Hello?"

When she finally looked up her eyes were red. "I fucked up" she finally says. My heart started to race.. what did she do? Kill someone? "I didn't mean to... it just happened" she says stubbing over her words. I sat next to her and grabbed a hold of her hand. "Tell me Jess" I beg.

"I slept with someone.." she admits while making a tight grip to my hands. I'd be lying if I said I didn't see this coming. "And a half.."

"And a half?" I asked as I let her go. She let out a heavy sigh. I looked away from her in disgust. "Who was it?" I ask as if I already knew it would be coming. You know I hear so many stories about men but how different is it really with a woman.

"A woman named Payton..." she slowly admits. when she said that all I could do was think of the pretty women from Dino's asking do I need help. The same woman I watched her walk out that back room with and almost kiss today? I didn't say anything, I was honestly speechless. I just stood up and walked to the door. "Get out" I mumbled. I didn't have anything to say to her. I've been waiting to see her since the last time I seen her. And THIS is how it goes. "Please"

She didn't fight me or try to convince me that she was wrong and that she wanted me. "Talk to me when your ready" she said before I slammed the door in her face. It won't be no talking.