Difficult relationship

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After ten minutes of silence just looking at each other from different couches he finally ask "What all did you see?"

I laugh as I look at them both. "This, this right HERE is pure gold" I say as I look at them both back and fourth. "Anyways.." I stand and walk towards the door. "I'm staying across the street tonight. With YOUR sister Ashley" right before I closed the door I said "and I saw EVERYTHING"

when I got across the street Grace was asleep in the couch. "There, she's calm." How in the.. "it's a girl thing"

I hug her. "Thank you" she didn't hug me back. "Not letting you go until you hug me back" she chuckled then hugs me. When I let her go our eyes met. I thought it was weird as fuck..but Chrissy got the wrong idea. She leaned forward and kissed me. I pull back as fast as I could. "Uh.."

"I-I'm sorry" she struggled to get those two words out. I didn't say anything. "Well I should get going" I nod.

I lay next to Grace and pull her close. She didn't push me away, she pulls me closer. It felt good to be wanted... for once at least.

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When I woke up her eyes were on me. "The plan was stupid" she sat up sighing. Her long brown hair was in her face. "I'm not going to school" she covered her face with her hands.

"I'll get your work.. I should go and see what's what You just rest" I say as I rush to pack my stuff. "I'll be back later" I kiss her forehead and try to leave. She pulls me back to the bed and kisses me. This was the most intense kiss I've had with her.

When she pulled away I was to shocked to speak . "It'll be more when you come back" either im dreaming or she's FINALLY into me. When I was across the street all I could think about is how our time on break will be... since it's coming so quickly.

I got home got ready and left. When I got to school everything was the same. Every body doing all the normal shit, no police, nor arrest. As I entered homeroom there was a big group of people around whom? Take a good guess.

"No they had to let me go, nothing leaded to me, plus I was with my boyfriend that night" Lorenzo said to the group. Chrissy was one of the many shocked to see him. I'm not shocked he got let out.

I moved past every body and sat at their table. "So no charges?" I joked. Everybody except Chrissy laughed. She's doing the shit from yesterday again, being awkward and making me feel uncomfortable. "Great to know your good and well"

"Yeah because Grace was worried" Chrissy says as I walked away. I look around the hall ways.. "hall monitoring?" Someone from behind me joked.

I smile to my self but drop it when I turn and see Darius. That's the LAST person I want to see right now... besides Lisa. "Who else would?" I grin as we walk towards each other.

"Here" he presses a pink notebook against my chest. I recognize this notebook.. it's Graces. She carries it with her throughout the school day. "She left this at my house not to long ago"

When those words hit my face all I felt was anger. "What?" He pushed the notebook towards my chest. Before his hand left my chest my fist was already at his cheek. "Why was she at your house?"

He started grinning as he whipped off the blood running from his lip. "I don't hit girls" he joked. Every thing this guy does makes me want to suffocate him... I don't like feeling like the old me but these people are driving me crazy. "Besides, I think you need to read that" with those words he left.

I look down at the old pink notebook and read the title of it. My Life ... this must be a dairy or something. I lean against some lockers as I flip through pages. Every page has a date... I go to the page of the first day of school.

"Fuck my life, it's the first day of school and I already look like the goody two shoes everybody thinks I am. And DONT get me started on the new girl. She literally fucked my first day up. She spilled that juice on me. THEN she came in the bathroom trying to feel me up with bullshit.. I can't believe I almost let her kiss me.. I felt so embarrassed just to be in the bathroom when Lisa and her gang came in making fun of me. Stupid bitches. And Ashley didn't even pick me up AGAIN. I had to hitch a ride from chrissy. And that's why she's my best friend."

If only she knew Chrissy kissed me ...

I turn to the next page searching for my name. And I stopped when I saw she was talking about the house across the street.. Which is mine?! She watched my house the whole day but when I finally got there she was gone? Oh.. I remember this night. It's the night I saved her..

"I honestly don't remember a thing from last night. All I know is I woke up In the devils bed. Jesse Martinez... She's such an ass. I didn't want her to walk me home because I live across the street but she didn't bother to ask so I didn't tell. Fuck her"

I close the book and headed to my next class. Throughout the day I tried to read the book but I got interrupted every time I tried. But as last hour came rolling around I saw Lisa. She looked pretty damn cute today. Her hair was straightened and her lips were extra glossy. I knew I couldn't talk to her though.. not after what happened A few days ago.

I couldn't get my eyes off of her, it's like she knew I was looking because she started to walk my way. "I'm not ignoring you or mad.. but an apology would be great"

I smile like the clown I am. "I'm really sorry.. I shouldn't of went awall the other day. I've been stressed lately"

She wrapped her arms around my neck. "I can make you feel better" she was looking into my soul waiting for the perfect answer that I couldn't give her.

I grab a hold of her arms and remove them from around me. "I can't..." I drop my hands to my sides. "I'm seeing someone.." she didn't look to happy about what I said but I honestly didn't care. "And I'm happy"

"What about my happiness?" Tears started falling from her eyes. What was I supposed to do? She black mailed me.. and still wants me after the extra mess we went through.. it's toxic. "Lisa... you black mailed me.." did she forget.

"I thought you would come around to like me." She basically cried out. She seemed genuine but I still didn't care. Remembering all the shit she's caused me these last couple of weeks I just don't. "Plus i still have those papers"

"Okay? I have something on you to" when I said that her tears stopped, and her frown turned into a smirk. "Because of you I have to go get tested" I joked but of course I wasn't.

Her eyes widened. "It was you?" She looked pissed. "So it wasn't that.. that freak! You robbed me?" She grabbed me by my shirt tightly.

"Me? Do you remember where I was that night?" I smirk. "I was on your couch kissing you. It's not fun having the shoe on someone else's foot" I joked. This is fun but I start to feel awkward being in her presence. Her eyes were locked on me. "I can explain"
She finally spoke. "When I was younger my parents weren't the best.. my mom did do drugs and my dad raped me" I saw tears start to fall again. "When I was raped I tried to say something but my mom took my dads side so it hurt me so bad that I started doing drugs myself..." I felt her hurt hit me hard. I saw me in her. "I-its a long story, I can't tell you it all. Just know I've cleaned my act and I was clean a long time ago"

"It's cool.. but did you ever think about how my past has a story?" She shook her head. I think it finally hit her that she was wrong. How can someone do that to get them to fall for them. "All is forgiven.. just give me the information"

She shook her head no. "I can't.. when you hit me I was so pissed that I sent the information to Graces email... I guess she hasn't checked it yet considering you guys are so close"

My heart started to pound. "I need to go" I start to rush down the hall and out the school. Please tell me she didn't read the it yet.