City Lights

relaps

Chris POV
I said it. I finally let it out and now I'm going to kiss her. The girl infront of me which is more like an angel than a human being. My lips touch hers but she moved away from me. My heart stoped beating and I could feel it break apart. "I-I'm sorry Chris." she mumbled and run to her room. I just sat there staring at the spot where she just disappeared. Why did she run away? I tought she likes me back. Suddenly Snowflake pressed himself against me and was asking for bellyrubs. "Hey little man. Lenora picked a really cute one I must say." I talked more to myself than to him.

Lenoras POV
I hyperventilated. How can Chris do this? I mean I am so not worth it that he even spends a second talking to me and now he just tried to kiss me. I'm sure that is a joke. Everybody is just laughing about me I know it. I'm sure they made a game out of it, I mean first Ricky now Chris. That can't be true I actually thought I'd be welcome here but they are looking at me like I'm just a game to them. I threw screaming a couple of books around and at this moment I didnt even cared if Chris would be able to hear me. I tried to open my drawer, where my box with all my blades are in, but than Chris came running in my room looking panicked. "What the hell are you doing?! Are you alright?" I scurried away from him and looked at the ground "I'm sorry I dropped some books and they fell on my feet but I'm fine don't worry." i hated lying to him but if I told him the truth he'd probably be pretty pissed. After all it's his house I was trashing just a second ago. "Are you sure your ok?" he asked worried and I just nodded my head not being able to look him in the eyes after lying to him. "Well than let me help you clean up this mess" was all he said while picking up the books I just threw around. A part of me knew that he saw through my lie and knows exactly that I've been lying to him but I just let it be.
"T-thanks" was all I could get out when Chris left my room after cleaning up. "No problem love. I'll go for a walk with Snowflake and than I'll go to bed. If you need anything just call me. Goodnight leni." he smiled than turned around and left. I let out a shaky breath and run to my drawer to get my blades out. I waited till I heared the click from the frontdoor which indicated that Chris just left. I pulled of my jumper and examined my arm. I could barely make out a part of my skin which isn't covered by fresh cuts. I groaned and got my jeans off as well. My thights were just as covered in cuts and scars like my arms yet I still find a place and drag the blade forcefully over my skin. The familiar stinging feeling comes back and I feel like being high from happiness. As the blood started dripping down my leg I let my finger run over my new cuts and played with the blood. In this moment I didn't exist to the world. My entire thoughts were only on the blood which covers my body. I drew lines with it and started laughing manicly. After a couple of minutes I got bored by my own pain so I stood up and walked to the bathroom to clean up the mess I have left on my body.

Chris POV
It was really warm outside even it was already late at night. Slowly I made my way back to my house. I closed the front door quietly just in case Lenora was already sleeping. I let Snowflake off the leash and he sprinted directly upstairs to Lenoras room. I had to surpres my laugh. I followed him upstairs and saw a sleeping Lenora in her bed. She looked so peacefull cuddled in between her pillows. Snowflake jumped up on her bed and cuddled down next to her and soon I heared a soft snoring sound coming from him. I smiled to myself and left the room quietly.