choosing not to

the formulated questions

may 15 2017

incoming call
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hello?

angelo ledesma?

yes? who's on the line?

richard. richard faulkerson jr.

what took you so long?

wait--what? you're expecting my call

kung ako nakarinig nung tawag ni meng kagabi baka inagaw ko na yung phone nya right then and there

how did you know maine?

oh cut the crap richard. we both know that's not what you intend to ask

who are you in maine's life?

now we're making sense. rj... mahal ko si maine. mahal na mahal ko siya.

so is this the cue for may the best man win? cause im sure i'll move mountains to have her back. mas mahal ko sya

have you told her?

told her what?

that you love her? that you STILL love her

not yet....

i tell her everday. every chance that i get. you should tell her

i will tell her.... what does she say?

when i tell her i love?

yes.... does she---

mahal ko si rj

huh?

mahal ko si rj. that's her response everytime i tell her i love her. so no richard i am not and will never be a competition. she's always yours mr. faulkerson

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still there? nakaka-hang ba ng utak na mahal ka pa rin ni maine?

she still loves me.

she does. it never faltered. i think it even grew more.

umalis sya ng walang pasabi. iniwan nya ko eh bigla na lang syang nawala. ilang beses ko syang hinanap. ilang beses kong hinintay na bumukas yung pinto ng condo ko praying na umuwi na sya

she can't forgive herself. something happened on your third anniversary richard. something that greatly scarred her. something that did not just broke her but left her empty

she didn't came. i planned my wedding proposal that night.

palagay ko hindi nya alam. hindi nya nakwento. but nevertheless, she would've said yes richard.

what happened?

you should know it from her. she should be the one telling you that part - but that will be your greatest obstacle. richard, sa pagmamahal ni maine wala kang ka-kumpetensya. she'll always, always choose to love you, but what happened that night made her think you don't deserve her. she blamed herself and until now she still does.

i don't seem to understand.... gelo wala akong maisip na pwede nyang magawa para maisip nya na i don't deserve her.

make her feel that. baka your words would change her mind. make her tell you because you deserve to know. it will be painful richard but i trust your love for her will make the pain less hurtful.

thank you gelo.

don't thank me yet. not until you know.

no... what i meant is thank you for loving her.

well my heart seems to have a brain of its own. oh just so you know, she found the tiramisu.

yeah she did mention.

make her not board that plane on sunday. and let's both end our miseries.

tell me about it. but if she does, i'll make sure i'll be on the same flight.

yeah. you can have that reservation and enjoy the tiramisu.

hers is still the best. thanks gelo. i owe you.

nah! we're good. take care of her richard.

i will.