may 15 2017
still cold?
only if you stop hugging me
would you want me to stop hugging you?
would you want me to feel cold?
hindi mo ka pa rin talaga makasagot ng diretso
do i need to?
would you want to?
do you want me to?
will you feel better if you do?
hindi ka din talaga nauubusan ng tanong noh?
we can start now
start what?
ubusin yung tanong ko
i'm sorry...
for what?
for not showing up at sofitel
why?
i'm sorry
why?
rj....
i wanna know why
i... ahhhmm... i... ---
maine... baby... look at me.... please.... kahit ano lang na rason.... tatanggapin ko.... but please give me one
i.... rj... i.... i died that night....
what killed you?
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tell me maine
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talk to me.... give me something....
rj.... i.... i... uhh... i'm sorry...
tell me maine....
what for?
so i can make you live....
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let me make you live. let me give back your life... please....
i can't...
you can and you need to. i need you to... tingnan mo ko maine... pakiusap tumingin ka sa kin... you can't do something to make me love you any less. kung may nagawa ka man i'll always have it in my heart to forgive you
that's the point rj.... you can always forgive me!!! you can't.... i messed up.... and you can't forgive me... you shouldn't forgive me... because i.... i ruined us....
i don't understand. tulungan mo naman akong intindihin maine. kasi basag na basag na ko... ubos na ubos na ko...
i'm sorry... wala na din akong maibibigay... ako yung may kasalanan dito... i won't do you any good rj
when you last came to see me after that incident you only gave me back that eternity ring and said sorry... hinintay kitang magsalita but you just left and i'm so sorry i didn't ran after you coz i can't move.... kasi ang sakit sakit na nun eh... sobrang sakit gusto ko ng mamatay just so i can free myself from that fuckin' pain and you know what's the worst part of it?.... kasi nasasaktan ako ng hindi ko alam. na wala akong alam... kaya please maine... please give me something...
i never wanted you to run after me rj... kasi kung sumunod ka... dalawa tayong mamatay....
then i'd rather die with you than live my life with this pain of not having you
i can't.... i can't let you die.... not like that... and if you felt that you died that night with that kind of pain then it's better because at least, it's a peaceful kind of death. with me it would have been a very slow and anagonizing one and i chose not to make you suffer that... the least i could do is to let myself go through that alone.... kasi hinding-hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko
you get to choose how i die and i don't? maine naman.... kahit ngayon lang hayaan mo naman akong mamili
i can't....
i love you
don't
mahal kita maine
rj....
mahal na mahal kita
STOP!
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!
RJ STOP IT!
MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA MAINE MENDOZA!
please stop...
MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA MAINE MENDOZA!!!
rj i'm begging you.... make it stop
MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA MAI---
I KILLED YOUR BABY!!!!! I FUCKING KILLED OUR BABY!!!!
BINABASA MO ANG
choosing not to
Фанфикwhen you choose not to hurt someone..... you're choosing to bear all the pain..... when you choose to take all the pain..... you're choosing to die everyday.... when you choose to die everyday..... you get to see that someone live.....
