choosing not to

on with the chase

may 15 2017

thanks for preparing the tub

your welcome. i got us pasta. baka mas gusto mo kesa sa tuna sandwich.

sige. let's just share na lang

i'd like that

so san sila nagpunta?

not sure. they only mentioned they went out

uy nakakahiya naman sayo. weren't you supposed to be enjoying.

i am

i mean... uhm... baka gusto mong sumunod tayo sa kanila

would you like that?

oo naman. i mean ilang days lang din naman ako dito sa pinas

eh di wag ka ng bumalik sa macau

sira. dun ako nagta-trabaho

may options ka naman dito. ayaw mo bang bumalik sa theatre?

no. i'm good there

you'll be great here

i don't think so

i know so

ano ka ba.... tama na nga

bakit?

anong bakit?

bakit kelangan mo pa bumalik dun?

kasi nga dun ang work ko. rj ano ba

you can work here din naman

can we just not talk about this

i love you

rj....

sabi ko mahal kita. hindi naman ako tumigil na mahalin ka

rj.... ahmm...

ano? you also don't want to talk about it? so tell me ano ba ang gusto mong pag-usapan?

let's... let's just go look for them

we will not find them maine

what? why?

isn't it obvious? they're giving us this time to talk. so again, ano ang gusto mong pag-usapan natin

uhm... i'll just catch some air....

stop running.

i'm not --

mapapagod ka lang kasi believe it or not, maine i'll keep on chasing you until you get so tired you'll need me to take care of you again

rj.. please wag na---

mahal mo pa ako.

rj...

go ahead maine, bakit di mo ma-deny?

i need to get out

deny it. tell me what i just said is not true then you can get out and catch that air

i dont.... i... rj i need to go out

you don't what, maine?

i.... uhhh... i don't.... uhhh i can't ok

you don't what? you can't what? ano maine say it

please rj....

bakit ka umalis?

rj tama na...

maine bakit ka umalis?

rj, please naman

tell me what i don't know....

you don't have to know anything

don't i deserve to know

no rj. trust me you don't

am i not that worthy?

you don't deserve the pain. i... i.... i'll die to see you go through that pain na ako ang may kasalanan

maine. anong nangyari? what happened that night

i need to go out rj..... please.... nakikiusap ako sayo.... please rj....

with all the tears he was seeing from her eyes he wanted to punch himself for pushing her. so he gave in, he'll always do. he wrapped her in his arms and whispered softly to her ears

mahal na mahal kita maine. don't push me away. i will never give up this fight. i'll have you back. i'll get you home.

i can't.... i can't go back home rj.... i don't deserve your shelter....

there's nothing you can do or might have done for me to think i don't deserve you baby

hearing this made maine feel more guilty. she felt angry towards herself for making rj go through this hurt but more so, she can't seem to have the courage to tell him the story that devastated her and shattered her life to pieces. had she just listened to rj.... things would never have happened.

they stayed like that for a while, wrapped in each other's embrace, both silently pleading if they could just stay like that forever. after a while, rj loosen his hold and led maine outside their room thinking a change of atmosphere might help her calm down. he'd keep his word, he'll get her to come back to him... he'll get her home....