Accidentally in Love.

Chapter 13: A Very Gloomy Christmas!

I wake up with the same hollow feeling in my chest. I went to bed last night hoping that when I wake up I would find out that it has all been a dream. It isn't. Draco broke up with me. And it hurts badly. Somehow the colors from everything around me are drained, all I see is grey. Why am I so broken? Why does it hurt so much? Maybe because it's the first time someone breaks up with me? Is it all my ego that's hurting me that bad? Or is it knowing that I'll never spend another day with him? My time with him was the best time of my life, even if we did nothing, I was always happy. The way he made me feel just by touching me. The thought of never feeling all of this anymore, hits me and I cry again wetting Draco's tie that's wrapped around my hand. I cry for an hour.

When I finally stop, I pull the curtains from around me and find that I'm alone in the room. everyone has gone to breakfast already, I guess. I get dressed and head down to the Great Hall.

When I enter, I don't dare to look at the Slytherin table. I don't want to have another break down in here. I sit next to Ginny with my back to the Slytherin table.

When she sees me she frowns in concern, "You look like a mess. Were you crying all night? I didn't want to wake you up or pull the hangings from around your bed, to let you have your privacy. What happened? Are you okay?"

I look at her, she knows me too well. Well enough to know that when she hears me crying, the best thing to do is leave me alone. I regret not telling her everything, she's my best friend. I feel like crying again.

She sees the tears trying to re-appear so she speaks quickly, "Maybe later. Do you know what are you going to wear tonight? We can get dressed together and then go meet our dates at the entrance hall."

I smile in spite of everything I'm feeling, "Great idea. I love you Ginny, you're the best friend ever."

She squeezes my hand and smiles back at me. Sometimes I suspect she knows exactly what's going on with my life.

As I leave the great hall I have a new determination, I will enjoy my time tonight. In order to do so I need my remedy. I head to the room of requirements knowing for sure that Draco isn't there. I need to get a full bottle from my secret stash. As I grab the bottle, I remember my promise to him of never drinking again because of the last time I drank. Well, he broke up with me. Didn't he?!

"You know, Lizzy your mood has shifted a lot since morning. Did you have something to drink maybe?" Ginny asks me suspiciously as we're getting dressed.

"Maybe. There's no harm in getting a little help to enjoy a party don't you think?" I smile at her broadly.

She hesitates before returning the smile, "I guess. I'm just worried. And I don't want to speak to you about anything now."

I giggle, "Don't be. And it's a good idea not to speak about anything. Let's enjoy our time tonight."

Hermione joins us and we get ready. We head together to meet our dates, but not before I sneak a few gulps to ensure not getting sober anytime soon. I see Neville and go to him, nearly falling three times on my way to him. I don't care, and tell him enthusiastically, "Hello partner. Ready to dance?"

He looks concerned, "Sure. Are you okay?"

I giggle, "I'm better than okay."

He looks at Ginny for reassurance then smiles to me and offers his arm, "Let's go then."

We head to Slughorn's office arm in arm, mostly for supporting me. As we arrive at the door we hear music, I begin to wonder how big the party is when I get my answer as soon as I enter. Massive! I don't know how his office got that big. It looks huge! And it doesn't look anything close to an office. In fact, it looks like a huge golden tent, fairies are flying around making colored lights. I keep wondering how all these people fit in here, or how did that place get that huge. But there's one thing I'm sure of, "Slughorn sure as hell knows how to throw a party."