Here comes Teddy

My worst nightmare became true (Thirty-four)

Teddy PoV

It was early on a Saturday morning, like 7am early, and I hadn't slept yet, was that stupid of me, yeah it was but it was because I had been accompanying my mates on a bender the night before, I didn't actually drink any alcohol because I was the one that was on getting everyone home duty, which I was completely fine with, I had decided that I would stay up until Ro went to bed on the Saturday night, a really fucking shitty decision with hindsight but I didn't have hindsight at the time, so...

Since I had decided to stay up and not sleep, I drank a bloody litre of fucking coffee, because I knew that I would've needed it to stay awake for that long, I was thankful that Ro was still sound asleep in her bed, because my body was still absorbing the caffeine from the coffee.

As soon as I got halfway down my coffee, the doorbell rang, because whoever it was wanted to piss my neighbours off, I went and answered it because it was my flat after all.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now Meg?!"
"I'm not messing around with you this time Teddy, I'm sorry that I left-"
"You said that last time, and yet you still left again"

My blood was boiling, my head was so close to exploding, but at the same time my throat was tightening, I felt my eyes slowly filling themselves with tears, the image of Ro crying because of Megan just popped into my head like a flash.

"If it was just me, I honestly wouldn't give a fucking shit wither you came or you went, because I'm a grown arse man that can take care of himself, but it's not about me, it's not about you, fuck it, it's not even about us, it's about our little girl and what's best for her-"
"That's why I came back Teddy"
"No no no Megan, you don't get to say that, because you leaving again pissed me off, not because you were gone, because that doesn't really effect me that much anymore, no what fucking pisses me off is that you came back into the picture, against my better judgment I would like to add but your Mother inserted herself into the fucking conversation even though it had nothing to do with her so much so that Ro met you both, I couldn't exactly say anything, you then established a decent fucking relationship with Ro only to fuck off again!, and now you have the audacity!, the fucking nerve! to come back like nothing ever fucking happened, how fucking dare you!"

I was so infuriated, but I wasn't the dry, stone cold, unchanging kind of angry, no that would've been way too fucking convenient for me, I was the wet, puffy eyed, how dare you angry, (because I cared but I didn't want to admit that at the time because toxic masculinity is still a thing).

"Teddy, hear me out, I regret leaving, both times that I did, but I thought that Ro would be better off without me-"
"Last time you left us, Ro was a newborn baby, so there wasn't really a relationship to damage, but this time there was a relationship to damage, not much of a relationship, but still a relationship, I mean she even made you a fucking Mother's Day card, but that's not the worst part, you wanna know the worst thing about you leaving was?"
"If I'm going to come back, then I need to know what the consequences of me leaving were"
"The worst thing was that she thought that she wasn't good enough for you, my worst fucking nightmare became true because of your yo-yoing feelings about motherhood"

I wanted to strangle Megan so bad, but instead I just broke down and cried.

"I didn't realise th-"
"You didn't realise (voice crack) what exactly?"
"I didn't realise that I meant that much to her, I just saw how much you mean to her Teddy, but I want to make it up to her so badly-"
"Not today, since I am way too pissed off at you to even function properly, come back when I'm less pissed off if that's ever fucking possible"
"Tedd-"
"God you're such a bitch!"

I slammed the door, because I didn't need Megan making it any harder for me than it already was.

"Fuck me!"

I sat on the couch and tried to process what exactly just happened, I didn't even drink the rest of the coffee, the whole room felt like it was spinning at 100 miles an hour, but I wasn't dizzy, I was just exhausted from the bullshit that Megan had just spouted out of her mouth.