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Chapter 16

"Who would've thought? The girl who once believed in fairytales and magic had to be struck by reality with demons in her mind and the fear of never being loved."

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I was randomly going through the book's pages, wondering how will we ever going to finish a book like that so fast. At this point, I was so tired of ignoring my thoughts, also from how much work I buried myself in just to forget my regrets that is so called life. But, can you blame me, really? I didn't have any purpose or reason to do anything other than work since it's the only thing I cannot fuck up, not yet at least.

"Do you really think you can continue, three days in a row?" Steve asked for the billionth time today. I sighed in frustration. Papers were tossed all over the table and lots and lots of cups of coffee were circling me.

"Why would you say such thing? I'm full of energy!" I yawned while talking.

"No, you're not. Now get your ass outta that office almost immediately or I'll drag it out myself. Don't test me." He said with a warning look. I was going to insist even more and I don't even know why I even try, but as I was going to part my lips, my phone buzzed in front of me on the table as it was set on vibration. I looked at it to find Candice calling, which was the first time in these three days. We text from time to time during the day, but we didn't have time to call since we were both busy with work. I picked the phone and answered the call.

"Yeah?" I said, trying to prevent myself from yawning on the phone.

"Hey cupcake, How's everything? Still working?" I was welcomed with her tiny relaxing voice. I don't know how she manages to do it, but just hearing her voice sometimes makes me feel in peace.

"Everything's fine, still working." I replied, I watched as Steve stared at me while I was talking, like he was hearing something important.

"Oh c'mon! You've been working like crazy these past few days, you need to chill a bit."

"Chill? I am chilled." I said, again trying to prevent myself from yawning.

"I can't see you right now but I can imagine you attacked by papers and cups of coffee, that's not my definition of 'chilled'."

"Well, maybe our definitions are different."

"C'mon, don't be like that. Go back home, shower, eat, sleep for a couple of hours and when you wake up get dressed so that I can pick you up."

"Cand-- Hey!" I was cut off as Steve suddenly grabbed the phone from my hands.

"Hey, Candice, how ya doin'? Yeah, I'm great. Listen, if you can't convince her to leave I'll be the one who does. She's been drooling allover work, she needs help." He whispered the last part as if I wasn't going to hear it.

"I heard that." I let him know. He smiled tightly and then continued like I wasn't even in the room.

For a second thought, I really do want to get out of here. It's only weakening me and does more damage than good. But I just don't want to risk being alone with nothing to do because I know that if I did so I'll be left alone with my thoughts, something I've been trying to ignore the past few days.

I sighed, "Okay, fine, I'll fucking leave!" I said in an exhaustion tone. I guess my tiredness made me short tempered even more which I can't risk having it here, for all I know I could get fired.

"Finally! Where have you been these few days seriously?" Steve said to Candice.

"I'm literally sitting right in front of you." He handed me the phone saying, "So?" I rolled my eyes then put the phone over my ear again.