The Flash and The Streak (the flash's sister season 2)

Legends of today part 1

It's dark. I'm terrified. I'm scared to breathe.

Why? Because Iris is looking for me. She trying to take me to therapy. I don't want to go. I've shut myself in the small cupboard under the stairs. Luckily I'm small enough to fit. Thought now I know what Harry Potter felt like.

I hear her stomp down the stairs. "Bethany!" She yells. I stay quiet. "Bethany!" She yells again. "Bethany! Nora! Allen! I know you're here somewhere! You need to go to therapy!" She shouts. I stay quiet. I hear her go back upstairs. I let the tears fall down my face. I let them fall without me making a sound. I already missed my first therapy session. Iris let me off. I almost had her cancelling it all together but stupid me did something stupid. She caught me cutting. I'm not proud that I do it but the voice tells me to keep doing it and I want to say no but it's like it takes control of me and my emotions.

Here's how the whole incident went down.

Warning: self harm and lots of emotion. You've been warned.

I was crying I couldn't stop the voice was back again and telling me to relieve my pain. So I got the small knife I had hidden behind my dresser and I sliced into my skin over and over trying not to scream in pain. The voice kept repeating "you deserve this, you deserve this."

A few minutes later I was still slicing my skin. When Iris came in "Bethany do you know where my hair-" she looked up and noticed what I was doing. She ran up to me trying to take the knife out of my hand but I held onto it tightly not wanting to let go. "Bethany no no don't do this!" She shouted crying. Not seconds later Joe came in hearing the commotion. Luckily Barry was at S.T.A.R Labs so he wouldn't be yelling at me. Joe quickly came to help Iris get the knife out of my hands. Joe is a lot stronger than me and Iris so he easily got the knife out of my hand and putting it down. I tried getting it back but Iris held me back while Joe grabbed it back off of the floor and put it further away from me. "No! No! I need it!" I shouted with tears flooding out of my eyes. Joe had tears in his eyes as well. "No Bethany no!" Iris cried now with her arms wrapped around me as I tried to struggle out of her grip. Joe puts his arms around me to holding me like I was dying. "Bethany what you're doing is completely stupid!" Joe half yells saddened. "No! I need it!" I scream. "Bethany stop please." Iris begged. "It's the only thing that made the pain go away." I sobbed. "Bethany you need help there's no question or argument you're going to therapy." Joe said seriously with tears coming down his face.

That brings us to now.

I hear the door open "Iris why are you still here?" Oh god it's Joe. "Bethany's hiding somewhere and I can't find her." Iris replies rushing around. "What! You have to be there in 40 minutes!" Joe half yells. "I know that help me find her." Iris says determined. I can hear them ripping the house apart looking for me. I just sat there with my knees against my chest. Then I hear the small door open and Iris eyes widen. "I found her!" She shouts. She grabs my wrist and drags me out of the small cupboard. I struggle "No! No! I don't wanna go." I whine. "Bethany your not in a good mental state right now and you need to get some professional help." Iris tells me calmly. "No I don't I'm fine!" I shout. I get out of her grip and try to use my speed to get out of the house but Joe had shut the door that I slammed into. I fell to the floor now a bit disoriented. Joe lifted me over his shoulder. "Put me down!" I whine crying. "I'm sorry sweetheart." He apologises putting me into Iris's car. He strapped me in. I quickly unbuckled my seat belt and bolted out of the car to only get grabbed by the waist by Joe. He put me into the car again and Iris locked the doors so I couldn't get out.

We were halfway there. "Iris please don't make me do this." I beg crying. "I know you don't want to go but, you need! To go. What I caught you doing isn't something me and dad can ignore Bethany that scared us." Iris says seriously. "I won't do that again I promise." I lie. "Bethany I'm sorry but I can't take your word for it this, this is to dangerous to take that chance." Iris sighs. "Please." I plead. "I'm sorry Beth but we're here now." Iris says unlocking the car and getting out of it. I want to just use my speed and run but here people will see me. Iris opened the door for me and helped me out.

I'm a complete mess now my hair is messy and I look terrible.

Iris practically drags me to the front desk. "Hello Ms how may I help you?" The receptionist asks in her nice tone. "We have an appointment with Dr Johnson." Iris replies. The receptionist works on her computer "I have a Miss Bethany Allen?" "Yup that's her." Iris confirmed. "If you would take a seat she'll be right with you." The resectionist tells us. Iris leads me over to some chairs. Her hand is holding mine for support. I just look down to the floor. My eyes are still red and puffy from crying. I hear Iris sigh "Bethany please don't do what you would usually do and leave. Me and dad are just worried we love you and don't want to see you hurt." "I know but I'm not sick I'm just sad it's not a big deal." I state still putting up a fight. "It's a huge deal, Bethany if you're sad you need to talk to someone and don't say you talked to me and Caitlin because obviously it didn't work because you've gotten worse." Iris says looking at me sternly. I sit there silently.

"Miss Allen." My name is called. Iris takes me over to the woman. "So you're Bethany?" She asks trying to be nice. I nod and say nothing. "Please come in." She invites us in. I sit on her white sofa while she sits there with a notepad and pen. "So Bethany Iris tells me that you've been depressed lately. Would you please explain what's been going on?" The woman asks leaning back into her chair. I say nothing. I don't want to be here I don't want to talk to her.

"Okay lets try something else. Bethany why did you and your old boyfriend Chase I think his name is brake up?" She questions. I don't say anything again. "Please Bethany please talk." Iris begs. She looks at me with pleading eyes. I sigh in frustration "a girl walked up to him kissed him and said they'd been going out for months." "Okay now how long had you to been together?" She asks "a year." I say trying to hide my frustration. "That's quite a long time. How did you feel about it?" She asks. "Angry, upset I don't know." I shrug. I know I'm not helping with opening up to them but I don't want to because I don't need a bloody therapist.  "Okay that's completely normal after a break up." The therapist tells me in a calm voice. Yeah well destroying half a forest because of said argument isn't normal but I don't tell her that. "And finally have you ever hurt yourself?" She asks but she probably already knows the answer. "Yes." I say bluntly. "Bethany can you tell me why you do that to yourself?" She sounds soft and sweet but this is not true this is just her act to get me into telling. So I stay quiet. "Bethany why do you hurt yourself?" She repeats. I say quiet. I don't want anyone to know about the voice. "Bethany please talk to us." Iris begs but I still don't say anything. "There's no rush Bethany you don't have to answer any questions I ask you." She says softly. "I know I don't I did, work at the CCPD I know my rights." I say coldly. "Wow for your age that's really impressive." She comments. I know that. "Bethany has been accepted to central cities top college she's starting next year." Iris tells her proudly. "Wow you're a smart Prodigy. So tell me Bethany why do you help at the CCPD?" She asks. "It's just a bit of fun I guess, you know helping families who lost someone because of murder by bringing the culprit to justice." I sigh. "So you want to help people?" She questions. I nod "well dear the first step to being able to help someone is to be able to help yourself." I scoff "no it's not." "Bethany." Iris warns. "It's quiet alright Iris. But Bethany if you can't help yourself how can you help others?" She asks rhetorically. "Well the hour is up I'll see you next week okay." Dr Johnson says getting up from her chair. Iris shakes her hand saying "thank you so much." She nods in reply. "It was wonderful to meet you Bethany." She says with a smile. I walk out with a frown without saying a word. Iris catches up to me. And we walk to the car.

I strap in. I just want to got to S.T.A.R Labs Joe is the only person there who knows about what I did and surrounded by everyone else no one will talk about it because nobody knows about it and Joe and Iris promised they wouldn't tell anyone especially Barry.

I fold my arms on the window sill and put my head down now looking out of the window. Iris ran her hand through my hair in comfort. "Bethany I know you don't like therapy but you should have answered all of the questions and you could have been a little nicer." Iris tells me. "I don't want a therapist I don't want help." I snap quietly. "You may not want to go but you need to go if you want stop feeling sad and depressed. Bethany how are you supposed to go to college next year if you're depressed and don't want to do anything?" Iris points out. I sigh and the car journey home was quiet and peaceful.