「 FRATERNIZING WITH THE ENEMY 」

34 | Lily

We reached home early Sunday morning; Mia and Chase stayed over at my place, we got a call from Noah telling us that everyone was going to be fine and that we should take care of ourselves too but I still didn't catch a wink of sleep when I tried to rest.

I was too afraid of the nightmares that could possibly come back.

But when exhaustion finally overcame me, sure enough on Sunday night when Mia and Chase had gone back to their own homes the nightmares plagued my sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night sweating, my chest burned and my cheeks were dampened with tears, I struggled to catch my breath as I felt a weight press against my chest,

This time there was no one next to me to comfort me.

I gripped my chest tightly while searching in the dark for my phone on my nightstand, I immediately called the first person I knew made me feel safe in his arms.

After a few rings Logan's groggy voice came through the other end of the phone, "Hello?"

When I didn't answer his voice got increasingly more worried, "Alexandra?"

"I-I" I tried to form a coherent sentence but I couldn't form the words, they got stuck in my throat,

"Alex" and I heard ruffling on the other end,

Sobs wracked my body but I covered my mouth with my hand to silence them, Logan must've realized because he stopped whatever he was doing, "Alex it's okay to cry" he reassured.

I was being so freaking stupid.

It was just one damn nightmare, I shouldn't be this worked up about it, I shouldn't ruin Logan's night because he's burdened by my baggage.

But I was and I am.

I let out a cry of frustration, digging my nails into my palms.

"Alexandra!" he called to me through the phone and I tried focusing on his voice, which seemed to calm me down a little.

"I want you to do something for me? Okay?" and I nodded even though he couldn't see me,

"Walk over to your window, right now and look up at the sky okay?" I obeyed with my wobbly legs I looked out the window and towards the night.

"Remember what I told you? The night I asked you to be my girlfriend? On Evergreen Bridge? I told you that I saw stars in your eyes, I saw the galaxies in your heart and I told you that you gave me hope that in the darkness I saw the light" His words made my heart flutter all over again, the heart wrenching sobs that once wracked my body had stopped as I listened to Logan's voice.

"You've made it so far Alexandra. I know you're hurting, I know it hurts. But I'm so proud of you. It's okay to cry and let it all out. I know you're heart is heavy and you feel weighed down but everything is going to be okay, don't you dare give up Alexandra. God, do you know how cheesy I sound right now Alex? All for you" I let out a small laugh at that, sniffling slightly.

My heart swelled at my feelings for this boy, this boy who also gave me a light in the darkest of hours.

***

I should be sleeping right now but I'm not,

And I blame the person who was incessantly ringing that irritating doorbell at noon on a Monday.

I know I should be at school but Mia, Chase and I decided we could take a day off to just relax and so they were coming over tonight for a swim in the pool.