I just updated 4 chapters as an apology for being very inactive😂I promise I will try to update more frequently from now on! This is the first of the four. Be sure to read them all, I hope you enjoy! X
I am hopeless when it comes to loving you,
Cause you don't feel how I feel,
And that's okay, but,
Sometimes I need some assurance,
That I am enough,
And when it plays on my mind that I was not enough for you,
It hurts in more ways than I can even imagine.
You see,
I thought heartbreak meant that your heart hurts for a little bit,
Because something bad happened,
And then you'd get over it,
And I always thought,
That I wouldn't feel heartbreak,
Because I could control my feelings.
And that was the most false thought I had ever imagined.
Because when I saw you with her,
After such a long time loving you,
It hurt in more than just my heart.
It hurt in my head,
In my eyes as the tears cracked them,
In my cheeks as they became hollow,
In my stomach as it ached for your attention.
And while I doubled over in the tight bathroom stall I had rushed to when I saw your face,
While a puddle of tears formed on the dirty floor,
I thought about how you treated me.
I thought about how I was always a second choice,
How I was always a fallback option,
How you never loved me,
How I was just convenient.
And when I walked out that stall,
Confident that I would never allow myself to get that attached to a person again,
I saw you again, alone this time,
And I decided, again,
To try once more to get your loving.
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Poetry//3rd Place Arctic Awards// Through poetry, this book expresses different mental illnesses, emotions and discoveries of a teenage mind. 'No amount of body lotion or perfume could cover up the memory of his smell on my weakened, scarred skin, And no...
