Stripper // h.s.

Chapter 13- Letters

Anna's POV

"What! You want me to move to America with you?" Sienna asked.

"I get it if you don't wan-"

"Don't interrupt" She yelled playfully. "I would love to." 

We sat on the couch in the living room until 4:00am discussing what colour we were going to dye our hair, what eye colour to chose and finally our names.

My name will me Erin Jones and Sienna will just change her last name to Thomas.

My eye colour will be blue and Sophie's will also be blue.

My hair colour will be blonde and Sophie's will be black.

I cant believe we are actually doing this. Her aunt, Melanie, owns a record company so she said she will hear what my voice is like and she might give me a record deal. My dream is coming true. Sophie will also get a record deal. Melanie will also provide us with a house of our own. For free might I add. Me and Sophie have always wanted to be Singer/Songwriters but she never had the confidence and I was too busy with my stripping. 

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I walked up the stairs at the back of the strip club, where the employees enter. As I open the door a group of half naked girls run up to me.

"Hey girls." I shout.

"Anna, what are you doing here? Your not meant to be working today." Marcus said.

"I know I just wanted to say goodbye. I'm leaving for America and I won't be able to come back to England."

"Why." Kelly, the youngest employee, said. We have been getting so close since she joined a month ago.

"Personal reasons. Don't worry though."

"Please don't go." Eva said crying.

"Eva, please don't cry. You will set me off." I said with tears in my eyes. 

"Listen I will be back." I hope.

"Bye. We love you."

"I love you too."

I got in my car and drove home. When I got to Sienna's house I walked straight up to the bathroom. I filled her bath with lukewarm water and bubble bath.

After doing what I needed to do I climbed out and wrapped a town around my body. I walked into the guest room where I am staying at the moment and grabbed my underwear and pyjama's and put them on. 

Since it is 9:00PM I decide on writing some letters to the boys and Rian. Here is what I got so far.

Dear Niall,

You're my best friend and I wouldn't wish for anyone else to be in that position. You have kept me going when I have fucked up. You've picked me up when times are rough. I always thought that the girls were my best friends but no not one of them could be as close to me as you. Niall James Horan, One Direction's leprechaun Is my fucking best friend. I will always be there for you and I know you will be there for me too. No matter where I am in the world you will still be with me. You can always visit me in New York, you know that, Just don't bring the Harry, Louis or Rian. They are a bunch of cunts. Niall, my Irish Leprechaun friend, I want you to promise me something's. Don't give up on me. Whatever I do please don't leave me. it would break my heart to lose you. I love you. You're the most amazing friend I could ever have. Another promise don't stop eating. Whatever you do Keep eating. Nom Nom Nom. 

Loves you loads Ni. 

Anna xxx (Or now you shall call me Erin Jones) 

Dear Zayn,

Hey, I know we weren't that close but this Is the last you will hear of me. I will always love you like my brother. I want you to look after Violet, I might not have known her long enough to call her my 'sister' but I know for a fact she will get broken easy. It's a girls intuition to know that. Make sure you care for her and love her with all your heart. I might be next door to you, I might even be across the world from you but I will find out if she is broken and I will mess up your hair. Whatever you do, even the little things you do she will notice. 

Loves you. Anna xxx

Dear Liam,

Hey, Daddy Direction, you care for everyone that's what you do best. But now you need to learn not to kill me for saying this but don't care for me. I sound like a bitch but its true, I don't need to be cared for. I am moving away and you wont do anything about it because you loves me obviously. Don't tell the boys that. Keep hold of Zoe, she is like a sister to me, break her and I break your face :) Sorry to keep this short but. 

Loves you loads. Anna xxx

Only three more letters left now. Harry, Louis and Rian. I think Harry's is going to be the hardest. I was in tears by the time I wrote Niall's name.

Dear Harry,

I'm sorry. That's all I can say right now. I need you to believe me when I say that I didn't kiss Louis. I swear down on your life that I would never, ever jeopardise our relationship, but it don't matter anymore, I am gone. No, I'm not dead but I will never feel alive without knowing that you don't love me back. I want you to find a girlfriend. Not someone who has hideous scars covering her body. I want you to find someone who is flawless and perfect. The opposite to me in every way. I want you to find 'the one' and get married to her and make lots of kids. I want you to forget about me and move on. No I have not stopped loving you. No I don't think I ever will. The one thing that scares me is that you wont be there for me when I wake up. I wont have your amazing food. You wont be the one who I wake up to every morning. You wont be the one whose lips will be on mine 24/7. And most important I wont be the one who you have your kids with and your last name. 

Love Anna xxxxxxxx

p.s I love you. don't let me be a burden on you. We have to Live while we're young. (see what I did there)

Dear Louis,

I need you to tell Harry and the others the truth. I am not telling you where I'm going or what I am doing but I swear down now If you trust me and tell the others everything will be alright. I'm not giving you a heart warming letter because right now I think you don't deserve one. I just want to say I forgive people very easy. But people who break my trust in them that's Is not so easily earned. You have to prove it to me . Just don't ever ever kiss me again. Because if you do then it will be the last thing you ever do.

Anna

P.S. Please tell Rian and Harry what happened. 

I didn't think it was so hard to write the letters. I've already posted the boys. I'm just thinking what to put for Rian's. I have an Idea.

Dear Rian,

I'm going away forever. I wont keep in touch, because I know you don't want this slut being a burden on you. I just want to say if you ask Louis what really happened he will tell you the truth this time. He was lying but his huge ego gets in the way. I want you to know that we have known each other for around 18 years, and all them years you have been there for me. After things with my mom and dad, you were there. With all the bullying, you were there too. Don't bother looking for Sienna and I. We are going away forever. You wont know if I'm living next door or in the next country. Just listen when I say. I love you more then I could ever love anyone. Maybe even more than Harry. But you will always be my best friend. When times are rough for me and you, promise me we'll be there for each other to pull us through.

Love Anna xxx

I posted the letter off and planned what to do tomorrow. This is my list so far.

All of our big stuff have been shipped over to America. Its actually happening now.