Not Such a Bad Guy: Eric Cartman x Reader

Chapter Twenty-Two

"You know, I'm not very nice to people, but they were never nice to me either.  It was always he's too fat to play with us.  They all blame me for South Park High being one of the schools with the highest obesity.  I had to cope, and this came out of it.  Mom found out and threatened to take all my electronics away, and I knew I'd have to find something else.  I thought long and hard about it, and cutting myself did no good.  It only made me depressed and eat more.  It was like eating made me feel whole.  Nowadays, I starve myself at home and throw up in the bathroom at school.  So yeah, I am very aware on how much a person has to hate theirself to do this.," he explained.

I couldn't stop staring at him in awe.

He does have feelings.

"Now I'm sure you'll go back and tell everyone, but I deserve that," he assumed.

"I don't know if I'm going back," I shrugged.

*Eric's P.O.V.*

It took a second to register.

"Not coming back?" I asked.

"Dad wants to move," she gave a sad smile.  " As if we leave this place, and I'll miraculously get better,  but he doesn't get that I've always been sad.  All this place did- well all you did- was give that monster a chance to evolve me into what I really am.  I've always had issues.  It's not your fault I have a bad head."

Leaving South Park?

A new feeling formed in my stomach.

I...I don't want her to leave.

"Hey (Y/N), I know after all of this you probably hate me, but I don't want you to leave," I admitted.

*Your P.O.V.*

I looked at Eric dumbfounded, but I realized-

"You know, after all of this, I don't hate you," I shyly smiled.

"Do you have to go?" he asked.

"Well, the doctor said I could go to rehab over the summer, " I paused, "but if I have you go, you are going to."

He stayed silent, but finally spoke, "I'll go, even though it's extremely unlike me."

"I won't tell a soul," I winked to him.

~Time Skip~

The summer went by very quickly, but I hadn't hurt myself in three months.  Eric was put on a weight loss program and was on his way to a healthy life.  We now walked hand in hand down the halls at school, though Eric didn't like it.  I was slowly falling in love with the boy.  Both of us were damaged but seemed to put our pieces back together.  

So that is the story of how Eric Cartman and I fell in love- even if he won't actually admit it.  Now, I know we seem to be a bit of a mess, but we're working on it.  Truth be told, he has a genuine soft side, but I think I'll be the only one to ever see it.  Honestly, he's not such a bad guy.

*(A/N): November 2015 was the first time I had ever hurt myself.  February 10, 2017 was the last time I had ever taken a blade to my skin.  I have over 40+ scars on my body, which to some maybe a lot and to others it might amount to nothing.  Either way cutting isn't okay.  It's not a healthy thing to do to yourself, and I know some may not understand that but it's true.  It hurts all those around you- even if you don't think they care because trust me someone cares.  I never understood how much I was hurting others until someone that I loved had done it, and I made a complete 180 turn.  Now, it's not something most can do on their own, and I understand that it's really hard to find that person you love and trust enough to help you get through it.  At least once a week I still get the urges to hurt myself.  It's insane what it makes you feel, and it's addicting.  Soon I'll be moving far from home by myself, and I get extremely scared I'll fall back into bad habits. But like I said I have someone there for me who very well saved my life, and even though he'll no longer live five minutes away, I know he'll be there for me.  I apologize if this or my story had upset anyone in any way.  I do NOT encourage self harm, but I do understand why people do it and where it comes from.  A lot of you guys read all of my stories and take this as a chance to get to know me, and if anyone of you guys ever want to talk to someone- someone who doesn't judge and someone who can be there as a friend- please shoot me a message.  I am a busy person, but I'll never be too busy to talk to one of my little penguins ;)*

*(A/N) (Part 2): Yes I'm doing these in parts now too!  I'm kidding, of course.  I just want to let you guys know how my writing schedule is going to look like this month.  Now in two days I'll be moving for college, and the next two weeks I'll be have volleyball practice all day.  So I will be writing through the month, but I will not be posting.  You probably shouldn't expect another post until September, and I'm doing that to avoid my irregular posting habits, because I feel terrible when I post and then get behind on my writing.  Right now you guys can get a sneak peek of what I am writing though.  I have a Kenny x Reader P2 and I've started a France x Reader.  So check them out.  I'm super excited to get them written and out.  (For warning, just because I'm not posting doesn't mean that I'm not on... so like I said if you need someone to talk to hit me up)  Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this story! Love Ya!*