Like I Do - Camren

Chapter 7

I awoke to Lauren asleep next to me. I checked the time and it was 2 am. I tossed and turned but couldn't fall back to sleep. I finally slipped out of Lauren's grasp and climbed out of my bunk to get some water.

I went to the lounge with my bottle of water and phone. I sat down on the couch and opened tumblr. Scrolling for a few minutes I heard Dinah yell my name. Then I heard a small thud, scurrying, curtains opening, and Dinah called my name. Thinking something was wrong I ran out to see Dinah looking around. She turned and saw me. "You're ok." She pulled me into a hug. "I thought you might've..." She started crying. "It's ok. I'm here." I said, rubbing her back. I had no idea why she was so torn up about me almost dying. It wouldn't be that big of a deal. It would make everything better for everyone. I chose to keep my mouth closed about this, and Dinah finally pulled away. She wiped her eyes and then softly slapped my arm. "Don't over do that again." She said, playfully. I just smiled. It felt good to feel wanted again. Until I remembered that I wasn't.

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It was morning time and everyone was sitting eating breakfast, except Lauren. I finally decided to go get her and I climbed over Ally to get to the bunks. I opened my curtain and found Lauren snuggled up to one of my pillows, sleeping. "Lolo." I shook her shoulder and she groaned. "Camz." She mumbled. "Lolo, get up." I said again. She still didn't wake, though. I figured a few more minutes wouldn't hurt and climbed in next to her.

I snuggled into her side and nuzzled my head into her neck. I breathed a sigh out before lifting my head to kiss her cheek. Immediately her eyes shot open. I smiled at the beautiful color. "Morning sleepy-head." I smiled. She reached her hands around my waist and pulled me into a hug. "I missed you." She said into my sweater. "I missed you to baby. Now let's go get breakfast." I said slowly. She nodded and followed me out.

The girls looked slightly surprised when they saw Lauren walking out with me. "Hey, Lo." Mani greeted softly. She just smiled back at her. The girls went back to eating and talking when we sat down. Lauren ate a piece of toast and I wasn't really hungry. I excused myself as "not feeling well" to the girls, so they wouldn't try to make me eat.

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"Hey, Camz." Lauren smiled shyly, opening my bunk curtain. I sat, reading my book. "Hey." I look over to her. "Um..... can we talk?" She asks as if I might snap at her. I close my book, not breaking my gaze on her, knowing that this was coming. "Uh, sure." I gulped softly. "Somewhere more private." She rubbed the back of her neck. I nodded and followed her out of the bus. We had stopped for a while so the driver could have a break.

We walked not to far from the bus on the sidewalk that wound through a large park. "So, what did you wanna talk about?" I finally asked. She guided me to a park bench and we sat. "Well.... I'm really worried about you. No one will tell me what keeps happening to you, and I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't know." She admitted. I grabbed both her hands and her eyes met mine. "It's ok. I'm fine, alright?" I ask. "No, Camila, it's not 'alright'! Something is seriously wrong! I'm your best friend! You should be able to tell me what's wrong!" She snapped. I flinched, pulling my hands away. I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Sor-" I started. "No. Don't be. Come see me when you're ready to talk." She scoffed and stood up. "And also, maybe you should consider someone other than yourself. You are being so selfish." She said, and walked away towards the bus. She's right. I am selfish. I'm thinking of only myself in all of this. The only reason I'm still here is because I want to be. How selfish.

Lauren's POV
I got back into the bus and ran a shaky hand down my face. Maybe I was the one being selfish. She was hurt. I may not know how so, but she was. "Hey, Lo. Where's Mila?" Dinah asked, sitting by the girls at the table. "I don't know." I shrugged. Dinah quickly jumped up, worry etched on her face. "What do you mean you 'don't know'?" She questioned. The girls behind her exchanged a worried glance and stood as well. I was so confused. "I left her at the park. I kind of blew up at her..... but now I feel kinda bad." I admitted. "Shit." Dinah cursed. "Why, what's going on?" I asked. "She's in an extremely fragile state right now, okay? Mani, stay here with Lauren. Ally, come help me find Camila." Dinah demanded, pulling Ally out the door.

I turned to Mani who stood there with a worried face. "Ok, that was slightly weird..... Mind telling me what it was about?" I ask. Mani just shook her head. "Lo, what exactly did you say to Mila?" She asks, walking up to me. "I told her that she was being selfish because she is hiding things from me. But I feel bad now...." I shrugged and looked down. "You left that part out when you were talking to Dinah. I just hope she's ok." Mani looked down. "I'm sure she's fine. There weren't any bad looking people." I said, looking up with confusion. "No. That's not what I'm worried about." She said, and looked down.

I was so confused.