My Brother's Bestfriend

Chapter 16

I woke up in the middle of the night not able to sleep. Kiem was outside on the patio smoking. It's like I had a 6th sense when he was in the bed with me.

Why you up.?! He asked pulling me down into his lap.

You weren't in the bed.

You need me to sleep.?

Since we started dating the first time we slept together I needed to be next to you when I slept.

That's cute.!

Oh is it.!

Yeah it is.! Thank you.!

For what.?

Coming to get me. I really needed you.!

I told you I'll always be there for you.!

I didn't think you ment after the break up too.!

Raven I love you and I ment it when I said it. I never wanted to tell you cause I was scared but hearing you going out with another nigga kilt me inside. It ain't no where near the pain I caused you but it's pretty damn close.

I understand. Look I forgive you, I do.! I been getting over the hurt but I feel like the more where apart the worst the hurt gets.! I love you Rockiem and I wanna be with you baby I do.! I'm just scared.

I won't do it again I promise I won't.!

How can I be so sure of that Kiem? You said you wouldn't hurt me the first time and here we are.

Because I see what I put you through how I hurt you. You just don't do that shit to the person you love!

I wanna believe you.! I do.

Than believe me.!

I don't know Rockiem.......I know we went left and all but just be my friend until we get back right.

I'll take that.....

I leaned in and kissed him. I was in love with this boy. "Can I ask you a question.?"

Shoot.!

Was Alex your first love.?

No.....you are.! Like I said I never told a female I loved her unless she was my moms.! It's like my dad always said "Even if you feel like you really love her
Don't ever tell that bitch that you really love her
'Cause that's when she's gon' make you feel like you nothing, And that's when you gon' start to feel like you buggin'"

Do you feel like that with me.?

Kinda.....I feel like you got so much power over me, I shouldn't say this but your my weakness.! He said pushing the hair out my face.

Can I ask you one more question.?

Shoot.!

Did you really want our baby.?

Yes I did Raven.! I felt like I was finally gonna have something to love me back unconditionally. Something that was actually mine. I looked forwards to having a lil me running around her. I was gone be this house for my momma but she left me so I decided to pass than you told me you where pregnant and I thought about it. This was where I wanted to raise our family at so I went on ahead and bought it. Shit empty as hell without you in it. I had Alex here for so long it felt wrong as hell she ain't know how to leave. With you, with you it feels like a home right now.! With you is what it should of been. And I'm not just saying this shit cause you in my face but I really mean it.

That's kinda how I felt.... with the whole loving unconditionally thing..... I wanted that love from you not just the baby.....

I said I'll always be there for you and I ment it.! It's just something I'll have to work on and prove to you over the years to build this trust back.

Your right.

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Latter On That Day....

I layed in bed all day sleeping it away. I didn't wanna go home. I didn't want my mom to see me like this or asking me a million and one questions on why this happened, than her calling Ryan or the police.

You hungry.? Kiem asked bring up a box of pizza.

Yeah I am actually.! I said sitting up. He put the pizza box in the middle of the bed and gave me my favorite soda PEPSI.! I looked for a good movie and we ate and watched tv. I wanted things to go back like this, like they where before everything happened.

He layed back and I pulled him between my legs. I retwisted his dreads as he layed in my lap. I kissed his lips playing with him, distracting him from watching the movie.

Stop.! He laughed.

sToP.! I mimicked him laughing. He smacked my hand away but I kept picking with him laughing. He grabbed my hands flipping me over his shoulders and he got on top of me. I couldn't stop laughing.!

You think this funny huh.?

Yes sir.!

Well how about this.! He started tickling me and I couldn't help but laugh harder and harder. "Now say sorry.!" He laughed.

No.! I giggled as he stop but he started tickling me again.

"Say sorry daddy.!" He smirked.

I am not sorry daddy.! I laughed squealing so he tickled me more and more I felt like I was about to pee on myself from all the laughing. "Okay okay oaky .!" I cried. "I'm sorry daddy.!" I laughed. He looked at me biting his bottom lip. It looked so sexy.! He leaned in to kiss me and I didn't hesitate. He started to rub on me slowly, taking off my clothes little by little. I let have him have his way with me. I needed some dick so I just let us happen.