Boyf riends one shots (FINISHED)

Relapse

Warning: self harm and sad boy Michael

Michael's POV

It wouldn't stop, the thoughts just wouldn't stop. Loser, what makes you think a guy like Jeremy would ever love a loser stoner like you. You're nothing, and that what you will always be. Why do you even try, everything you do is awful. Jeremy doesn't care he'll just leave you. The steaming tears ran down my face as I picked up a pencil sharpener. Your just a fat, stoner, and a loser. You can't do anything right. After working with the screwdriver I got the blade out, still crying. Good ahead do it just one won't hurt. I slide the blade on the skin on my wrist, one cut turned in to in to three which tired my whole wrist. Blood ran down my arms as I sat on the bathroom floor and cried. I soon got up cleaned and wrapped the cuts and hid the blade. I decided to take a couple hits of a joint to see if it would make me feel better. It didn't but it helped me forget about everything.

"Hey Michael, I'm here" Jeremy said from the top of the stairs. I started to panic I was wearing a tank top so you could see the bandages on my arms.

"Wait don't come down, I'm um busy" I said but it was to late he saw me. He dropped the 7/11 bay he had in his hand.

"Michael why?" He asked.

"Because, I'm a fat, ugly, loser that gets stoned is his basement, and plays video games all day. How in the world could some one like you, love some one like me" I said crying again. Jeremy ran to me and hugged me and stroked my hair. I just cried and cried in his arms.

"Michael please, look at me you need to listen to me when I tell this" He said gently pulling my face to look at his. He wiped my tears and look me in the eye and kissed my head.

"Michael Mell, you are the most beautiful, kind hearted, smart person I have ever met in my life. You saved my life along with several other people's. Your are the best thing to ever happen to me. Please don't hurt your beautiful skin" Jeremy said crying as well.

"I am the one that doesn't deserve you" he said.

"Jeremy I'm sorry" I cried.

"It's okay babe, just please if you ever feel the need to hurt yourself please please call me and I'll be over to help you okay babe. I love you babe, I love you so much" he said.

"I will, I love you too" I say.