So Soon - Josh Ramsay/Marianas Trench Fanfiction (Sequel to Porcelain)

14. Letters

Chapter 14

We woke up to the alarm at 6am. I went to roll over to turn it off and I fell on the floor.

"Oh fuck me." I groaned and turned off the beeping noise.

"My head hurts." Josh complained and covered his head with a pillow.

"You don't think mine does? Get up. We have to leave in a half hour." I said as I went to the bathroom. I sprayed on some perfume and tried to tame my hair. Josh came in 10 minutes later and brushed his hair out. I changed out of my dress and into shorts, a off shoulder crop top with long sleeves that was blue, and my red vans. I removed all my makeup from last night and took out my contacts that I slept with in, that now hurt like hell and made my eyes dry. I put on my ugly black glasses because I didn't want to irritate my eyes anymore with contacts. I've probably never mentioned this but I wear contacts most of the time.

"You look cute with glasses." Josh smiled. I cracked a smiled back and grabbed my suitcase that I packed a bit ago. Josh got his and we left to Matt's room.

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I watched the plane land. I love looking out the windows of planes. After a bit the doors opened and we all left with our bags. We got into a van with this guy called Kevvy, I guess he was good friends with Matt.

"Don't even look at me." I groaned I snuggled my face into Josh's shoulder.

"Oh boo, I'm sure you look fine." Kevvy said as he started to drive. By the way, we didn't leave Kyle and Darla and everybody else back in Vegas, they got a different plane later in the day.

"I have a billion zits and I'm hung over. And Matt likes you better." I mumbled.

"Do not! Sorry Kev." Matt said from a seat ahead of us.

"Matty, what about Nicole? Your soon to be fiance. Are you gonna leave your best friend for her?" I asked. Then I realised that was very very rude. "Fuck, I'm sorry." I apologized.

"How do you know about Nicole?" Matt asked as he turned his head to look at me.

"You're the opposite of a shy drunk. You said it last night." I said.

"You didn't say anything to her did you?" Matt asked.

"No, I said nothing. Sorry for telling everybody..." I sighed.

"They were going to find out eventually. So, does everybody approve?" Matt asked. Everybody said yes. Matt smiled.

"Josh wants to marry me." I giggled.

"When did I say that?" Josh asked.

"Last night." I said and held his hand.

"Wow kiddies, slow down. You've only been together again for a few days." Matt laughed. We all laughed with him. On the long drive home from the airport, I fell asleep on Josh.

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"How do we lift her?"

"Is she dead?"

"Haha she's drooling."

"I've literally never seen her asleep."

"Guys shut the fuck up, you'll wake her." Josh said and picked me up.

"Tell Kevvy I said bye." I mumbled in his shoulder and kept my eyes closed.

"Okay darling. Go back to sleep." Josh kissed my head and continued to walk to what I was guessing was either Matt's or his apartment.

"My acoustic is in Matt's room." I mumbled again.

"You're staying at my place. We can get it later." Josh said before I slipped into sleep once more.

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Where am I? It was pitch black in the room. I got up and opened up the door. Josh was laying on a couch fast asleep. I looked at my phone to see it was 3:30am. Oh yeah, Josh told me we were staying at his place. Thank god my head didn't hurt anymore. I went back into his room and shut the door quietly. I turned on the lights. Then being the nosey bitch I am, I went through his stuff. I opened up a drawer filled with papers. This first one I grabbed had this written on it...

August 21st 2002.

Dear Caelyn 'Porcelain' Marie Jones,

Why did I ever fall in love with you? You're the love of my life, and now you're gone. It's been nearly 2 months since you've left Vancouver. Not talking to you everyday kills me. The thought of never talking to you again, there's no words to describe how I feel. I love you so much Porcelain. Yesterday Matt tried to get me out of bed... I refused because life will never be the same without you. I used to be so happy, but now all those feelings are gone. I've thought about relapsing, and I was about to one night before Matt caught me. Matt said it would be best if I moved out of this apartment, but it's the only thing I have left of you. This stupid place is all I have left. I've talked to your mom, she gave me a few things that were yours. Porcelain, my shirts that you wore around still smell like you. I don't understand how people can live and be happy without them in your life. Hell, I miss you. I miss you more than anything. I know we're just teenagers in love but I want you in my arms again. I love you.

  - Josh. 

By the end of the letter I was crying. A black and white cat came up to me and snuggled into my lap. It's tag said Tux.

"Hi Tux, please don't let me hurt Josh again." I whispered and pet the cat. It meowed softly. I went in the drawer again and grabbed another paper. It was the lyrics to So Soon. On the bottom it had this written on it....

'Dedicated to my dearest Porcelain. I love you'

Another tear came down my face. I put the papers in the drawer. I held Tux and got up to turn the light off. Me and Tux laid back down in bed and I tried to fall asleep.