No Words 2 {a Kian Lawley fanfic}

Chapter 15

--Jade's POV--

Home. It's the best place for me to be right now. To be surrounded by my family. To relax and think. Get my mind off things, but mostly Kian.

"Jade dinners ready!" Kelli yells from the other side of my bedroom door. "Be there in a few!" I get up from my bed and head toward my closet and throw on some sweatpants and a loose t-shirt that says 'teenage dirtbag'. I head downstairs where my parents, Kelli, and Harry are sitting at the table. I sit down across from Harry and next to me is an empty seat, I'm guessing for Tate.

"Tate couldn't make it." I look up and look from Kelli to my parents. "He said he had some work to do." Harry said giving me an apologetic look. I nod and grab a piece of chicken that is laying in the middle of the table. Everybody else starts digging in but nobody says a word.

After dinner Harry, Kelli, and I are watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower with Harry and Kelli on the love seat and me with the whole couch to myself and my parents are asleep when there is a knock on the door. As Harry gets up to answer it I tell him I got it and head for the door. When I open the door I can't help but smile. "Come in."

"Thanks." Wes says as he walks past me and into the house. "What are you doing here? Not that I'm not happy that you are here because I am." I smile. It feels weird because I haven't smiled since I left the pack house two days ago. "Well I promised that I would keep you updated." He smiles. "Oh yeah well we are actually watching a movie right now. You should stay and watch it with us."

"Sure yeah that sounds great." I take his arm and lead him into the living room and sit him down on the couch. I got some weird looks from Harry and Kelli but I ignored it.

In the middle of the movie Harry and Kelli went home so it was just Wes and I alone on the couch. "Why doesn't he just ask her out?" I ask referring to Charlie not asking Sam out when he is totally in love with her. "Because she has a boyfriend who seems to make her happy and he is her friend so he doesn't because he wants her to be happy." He says looking at me. I know now that he isn't just referring to the movie. "Wes."

"I know." He says turning back to watch the movie. We don't say much the rest of the movie.After the movies over we say our goodbyes and I head to bed thinking about what could of been.

--Kian's POV--

"Why were you at Jade's last night?" I ask Wes as he enters the pack house. "I was checking up on her." He says walking past me and into the kitchen. "Why? What happened?" I ask thinking about what I would if something were to happen to her. "She's fine. I was just making sure that she is comfortable at home after not being there for awhile."

"What did she say?" I ask wanting to know if she is happy there or not. "She seems happy. I really think this is what she needs right now." He says looking at me with a glare. "Do you have something you wanna say to me?" I ask knowing that he wants to get something off his chest. "Yeah actually I do. What makes you think that you could have laid a hand on her. She is the love of your life, right?" I nod. "Then why would you ever want to hurt her because she doesn't deserve it. She is so sweet and kind. What in the hell were you thinking that night?"

I'm speechless when he is finished. He definitely had a lot to get off his chest but I wasn't expecting that. "I-I wasn't thinking." Is all I can say at this point. "Of course you weren't. You know you don't deserve her after the way you treated her. She deserves better." He says before walking upstairs and going to his room.

He is right. I don't deserve her after the way I treated her. She deserves better than me. It's been two days and I haven't even tried to talk to her. I was gonna talk to her the night she left but I couldn't bring myself to step foot on the lawn. I waited on the out shirt of the woods near her house for an hour thinking through what would shown if I went to talk to her but I just couldn't bring myself to. After five minutes of standing like an idiot in the kitchen I went to bed.

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I'm at the cliff with my feet hanging over the edge like always. Thinking about her. What she's doing? Who's she thinking about? Does she miss me? Does she think about me as much as I think about her? But no matter how much I want to forget about what Wes said last night, I can't. Everything he said kept taking me back to that night. I wasn't thinking. I couldn't control myself after I saw Dampyr, there was just so much anger and it got out of hand. I shouldn't have let my wolf take over. I should have been able to control him and not let him control me.

I will never forgive myself for hurting her and now I've been thinking 'Would her life be better without me?' It would cause both of us a lot of pain but maybe later on she will be happy with someone else. With Wes.

--Jade's POV--

Food. The only thing that can heal all wounds. I'm currently at McDonald's with Darcy after we went shopping at the mall. She said Sam is hanging out with Kian today and she wanted to have a little girls day. Me being the lovely friend I am, I agreed.

"So how is everything at home?" She asks shoving four fries into her mouth. "Good, it's definitely what I needed." I take a sip of my pop. "Listen Hade I know you probably don't want to hear this but I think you need to. Kian hasn't been the same since you left. Sam says he doesn't see him eat and he says he hasn't seem him smile in forever and you know Kian, he loves to smile."

"Darcy." I groan shaking my head. "I'm not just gonna run back to him after three days like usual. I'm not gonna run back into that cycle. We both need some time apart."

"I understand but I just want both of you to be happy." She says finishing her fries. "I know and I love you for that but for now I just don't want to talk about...him." She nods and we finish our food then head to her house to watch Netflix.

"Let's watch P.S. I Love You." Darcy says after watching Grown Ups 2. "I don't think I'm in the mood for a romantic movie can't we just watch comedies." I whine. "Come on just one romantic movie." I groan but agree. Which was probably a bad decision because by the end of the movie Darcy and I are balling.

"I can't believe he wrote her all those letters." I cry. "I know he is so sweet and that last letter...OHHH!" Darcy cries out. "Should I come back later?" We turn around to see Sam waiting by the front door. "No, no we're fine we just watched P.S. I Love You." Darcy explains getting off the couch and hugging her boyfriend. "Hey Jade." Sam says sitting down in the couch. "Hey."

*awkward silence*

"Well I think I'm gonna head home." I say getting off the couch and heading toward the door. "Are you sure? You don't want to hangout a little longer?" Darcy says getting up from her spot next to Sam and standing in front of me. "No it's ok. I had fun today we should do it soon again." I say giving her a hug and heading home.

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A/N

I'm so sorry the update took so long. I got grounded and didn't get my IPod back for a month. But I hope you like it and school is almost over so expect more updates.