A Heart In Two | YuTae

Six.

It's been a day and, he still can't get rid of the image of Yuta's tears, those red rimmed eyes, which used to be so bright and sparkling and his sad and hollow gaze but, above it all is his heartbreaking confession. Taeyong is so close to giving in, it's only for a night, right? It doesn't have to mean anything when in reality it will mean everything to Yuta. Without thinking twice he calls the one who has been running all over his mind.

"Can you come over?" Taeyong is anxious but, he still manages to not stutter. Without waiting for the younger to reply he hangs up the phone. There is nothing to be anxious about, he tells himself but, can't help himself when he feels the insides churning in nervousness.

Yuta was surprised when he got a call from Taeyong but, it did make him feel a light of happiness that Taeyong thought about him. Without wasting any more of the precious time, Yuta hurries towards Taeyong's apartment not caring how he looked at that moment because it didn't matter. It never mattered.

Taeyong stiffens when there is a knock on his door and, he takes a deep breathe before opening the door to see a nervous Yuta. At least he isn't the only one who is nervous, Taeyong thinks to himself and gestures Yuta to come inside. It wasn't supposed to be this awkward, they have been friends for many years but, what happened last night can't be forgotten. There will always be a little distance between them, if it wasn't visible before, it clearly is now. The silence is deafening and, the only thing that Taeyong can hear is his erratic heartbeats and uneven breathing.

'Can't we act like you never confessed?" Taeyong speaks carefully, not to make Yuta feel uneasy. They are sitting at the opposite end of the couch and Taeyong doesn't dare to look at Yuta.

"I don't think that I can. I know that you won't be able to forget it, too." Taeyong dares to look at Yuta's beautiful face which he regrets instantly because Yuta doesn't look sad nor hurt. He has a blank face, void of all emotions that he let Taeyong uncover last night.

"Your confession. It's too late, Yuta and you also know that." Taeyong doesn't want to live avoiding and hurting Yuta, he wants the younger to move on and fall in love with the right person.

"I know how the both of us will end, but I just want you to be mine for a night." Yuta stands up and, kneels in front of Taeyong, covering those warm hands with his.

"I just want to love you, for a night and I will let you go. Is it too much to ask for?" Yes, Taeyong wants to say that he can't and he isn't in the place of giving what Yuta wants.

"I don't want you to regret this tomorrow or any other day." Taeyong whispers as Yuta looks up to meet his gaze, uncertainty visible in those bright doe eyes of Taeyong's but, Yuta isn't hesitant.

"I would never regret loving you, even if it means hurting myself endlessly." Taeyong gulps as Yuta strokes his cheeks with his thumb, closing his eyes as he leans in the touch.

I am so sorry, Jaehyun.