Daydream Away

Chapter 15: He's Found Someone Better

I've been waiting for Jack to come back with our drinks for over ten minutes now. I decided to get up and look for him. I walked into the kitchen and found Alex making out with Lisa. I rolled my eyes and walked upstairs. 

I walked into my room. I turned on the light and took off my shoes. "Shit!" 

I looked up at the bed.. Jack was trying to pull his pants up leaving a confused girl in the bed. Tears filled my eyes. "What the fuck Jack?" I yelled. "Maria I ca-" 

"Save it Barakat." I yelled storming out. I ran into Zack. "Fuck." I croaked. "Is everything okay?" He asked worried like. "Yeah." I lied wiping the tears from my face. 

"What happened?" He asked as he rubbed my back. Jack would rub my back all the time. I squirmed away. "Go look for yourself." I said with a edge to my voice. 

I walked away while Zack walked into the room. Plenty of "What the fucks" came from the room. I sighed and walked to the kitchen. Alex and Lisa's hands were entwined. "Alex.." I croaked. 

He let go of Lisa's hand. "What happened?" He asked lifting my chin. He wrapped his arms around me. I cried into his shirt for what seem to be forever. "I-I can't do this anymore." I mumbled, gripping onto his shirt.

"Don't say that." He whispered into my hair.

"Come with me." He grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. 

We walked passed by room. I glanced in and saw Jack and Zack talking. I stopped breathing as I usually did. Knowing if I did breathe I would end up breaking down.. Alex took me into his room and sat us down on his bed. "Breathe." He spoke calmly and quietly. 

He squeezed my hand. I let everything out. Alex pulled me into his lap. He laid his head on top of mine as he stroked my hair. 

"Shh.. shh.." He rocked us back and forth. "It's okay.." He whispered. "N-No it's not." I replied. "What happened?" He asked. "J-J-Jack.." I cried into his shirt. "What about Jack?" He asked. 

"I-I walked into m-m-my r-room and J-Jack was w-w-with another.. g-girl." I stuttered. He pulled out of our hug. "What? You're kidding?" He stood up and walked out. I crawled better onto his bed and laid down. I cuddled up next to his pillow, still crying. 

"What the fuck is wrong with you Jack! Why the fuck would you do that to her! Her mom is gone, her dads in jail and now you're gonna fuck some other girl in her room!" I heard Alex yell from down the hall. "Get the fuck out of my house!" He shouted. 

"Alex, I can ex-" 

"I don't give a shit. Get out." He demanded, his voiced was filled with anger. He made his way back to the bedroom. He scratched the back of his head before laying down with me. 

I looked up from the pillow. "You didn't h-" 

"I did. Jack may be my best friend but you're my cousin, you're going through too much right now. You don't need that right now.." He explained. I sighed. "Come ere'" He said. I scooted towards him and laid my head onto his chest. He tightly wrapped his arms around me. "It'll be okay. I promise." He kissed the top of my head.

I woke up the next morning still tangled in Alex's arms. I cuddled myself into his chest, inhaling his scent. Alex is like a big teddy bear. "Morning.." He mumbled. 

I yawned, "Hai." I replied. "Wanna go get some starbucks?" He asked. I nodded into his chest. We untangled from each other and got out of bed. "Did Jack leave?" I asked in a whispered tone. He nodded. I walked to my room and opened the drawers.

I put my hair in a messy bun, simply not caring. I un-dressed myself and put this on; polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=81745185

I walked out and almost slammed into Alex. "Ready?" He asked. "Yeah." I mumbled. He grabbed my hand again and we walked to the car. Alex got in the drivers, me in the passengers as usual.

He pulled out of the drive way and headed down the street. We soon came to a red light. "Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked. I slightly bite my lip then rubbed my arm. "I don't know.." I whispered. Alex glanced at me before he started to drive again.

"If you do just remember I'm here. I don't anything bad to happen to you Maria." He stated. I just nodded and gave him a weak smile even though he was focused on the road.

But why would Jack do that.. He probably hates me. He's probably always hated me. He just felt bad for me. He's found someone better now.

Alex interrupted my thoughts, "Maria what do you want?" He asked, waving a hand in front of my face. "Uh, Vanilla bean." I stated. Alex ordered then drove to the next window and handed the lady money in exchange of our drinks. "Thanks." He told the lady before he handed me the drinks.

I set them on my lap and held on tightly, hoping we wouldn't hit any big bumps. The car ride home was silent. Not bad, not good, just silent. We arrived at the house and Alex took the drinks from me.

We both got out of the car and went inside. "Rian!" Alex called. Rian stumbled in from the dining room. "Hm?" He mumbled. "Here, I bought you and Cass some coffee." He explained as he handed him the cups. Rian thanked him then went upstairs.

"Cassadee is here still?" I asked. Alex nodded, handing me my drink. I took a sip. It tasted like heaven. I wanted to roll all over the floor it was so good. "I'll be in the room." I quickly stated before I marched up the stairs.

I wanted to cut. No, I needed to cut. I needed to let everything out. I set the coffee on the night stand and began looking for a sharpener or something. Soon enough I found a sharpener. I un-did the screws and dumped the blade into my hand. I ran up to my door and locked it.

I didn't want Alex, Rian, or even Cassadee to walk in on me. They'd freak the fuck out.

I just laid the blade on my wrist. Staring down at my healing wrist. Tear drops, dripped off my face landing on my wrist. I hate myself for this but I need it desperately.

I picked up the blade and cut open my skin. My whole forearm. Every inch of it had a cut on it. It wasn't bleeding bad.. yet. I walked to the dresser and pulled out a blood stained baggy shirt and placed it under my arms. I squeezed my arms a little and that's when all the blood came out.

My arms bled for about 5 minutes.. that was the last thing I remembered.