Marriage Without Love (Completed)

Chapter 5

Media : How long by Charlie Puth

Now I get it...now I get it why he didn't even once kiss me like a man do to his woman, why he never touched me, why he never looked at me with those eyes with which he was looking at that man....because HE is GAY!

No! If I am dreaming a nightmare, plz wake me up! I don't wanna be in here. It's the first time I loved someone outside my family.

God is very cruel! My conscience cried as tears stream down my face. My heart breaks into million pieces.

I want to turn away from their steamy make out, which I never had, but was statued on the spot. I see them & see how much in love they are which cause more of my misery. I was frozen thinking what sin I must have done to deserve this. He was so sweet & caring with me.

Just as I was wondering with sorrow, he turned around "Baby let's go i-" then the other one gasped "Fuck! Snow! Why are you here now? Your work doesn't end before 8:00pm. Fuck!" He spoke angrily. He starts to walk towards me but I can't take this anymore. I dash to   my car again & drive away. I don't know where but I do. Driving & calming myself down.

I stop at a park that came along the way. I get out of my car & sit on the bench in park to get some fresh air. To cool down my head. To assess everything rationally because my feelings will do no good. To figure out.

I always knew that I was not perfect for that guy. He is everything one could ask for. The prince on a white horse. Knight in shining armour. Light in the darkness. Every freaking good thing.

I never did deserve him. I should've known. How can God give me someone who was truly out of my league? Hey wait! God gave me what I asked. I never wanted to marry. Now I am like I never married! I should be thankful.

Now about Will. He looked so happy with his boyfriend. If I truly love him, I shouldn't act so selfish. I should let him go because my happiness lies where his happiness lies. I vowed in marriage too that I will be with him always & will always support him. So this is what I will do. I will laugh when he laugh, cry when he does & try to make him happy somehow.

This is for him. No matter how painful, I will do this! For him! For my love! I have to make a resolve. Because these tears are still streaming down my face like a waterfall, never ending. I haven't cried like this my whole life. Thank God. No one is near me enough to notice. I sit there, head resting on my hands as I try to gather my feelings.

I can distract myself with my work & live in the workplace itself. It does have a living place behind the clinic after all. Okay, it's decided then. I am strong, though ugly but definitely strong. I decide to go back & talk to him. Knowing him as much as I do, he must be worried.

I knock on the door which is opened almost immediately by him. So I know him at least this much.

"Snow..." He mutters as he hugs me, his worried expression somehow hurting but making my resolve even stronger.

"Will, let's sit & talk. I understand everything." I smile at him, trying to make his worry thrown out of the window. He doesn't look good like this.

"Yeah....sure!" He says hesitantly.

When we were seated on sofa, grabbing a glass of water I gulp it down. I sit in a business like manner.

"See, I saw that. I get that you are gay. And I am not angry. It hurt me that you didn't tell me but I guess that's 'family pressure' & 'succession' issues, right?" I ask to which he only nod, worriedly. Why worry? Does he think I will reveal to his family all this?

"I won't tell anyone so don't worry." I say, somewhat sulking while he looks at me with awe. "What? Ain't I your best friend?"

"Yeah. You surely are!" He smiles that 1000 megawatt smile that might melt the hardest heart & convince you to forgive him anyways.

"So is your boyfriend here?" I ask smiling, though it left a nasty aftertaste in my mouth.

"His name is Alex. No. I sent him home." He smiles. I sigh. At least he is smiling now.

"Okay. I will leave this house tomorrow. But don't tell my parents." I say as I was about to get up.

But he holds my hand that made my heart skip a beat but I controlled. I remain seated. "Stay here only. It is your house too now. Also, my parents will know if you don't." He pleads.

"Okay. It's fine by me." I smile. Formally.

"You can bring your boyfriend here if that makes you happy, I have no objections." I smiled keeping my true emotions at Bay.

"Oh you are such a good woman. I love you for this!" He hugged me beaming with happiness. It pained my heart but it was for the best.

"But I would be here too, would it be sa-" I was about to say that would it be saying too much for his boyfriend that his boyfriend, Will, has a wife under the same roof but I was interjected by him.

"Don't worry. It would be safe since he would be gay too so not interested in girls. You are not that beautiful anyways." He beamed again. I know he did not meant that in a bad way. I repeat to my self as this pierced my will Everytime.

"Yeah sure. Now I gotta go do some work." I smiled to hide my sadness. I need to be alone now. I walk to my room while he himself a song as he helps himself with a Coke can. I hear him speak as I ascend the stairs "Hey Darling! You can stay here at my pl-" hearing this I increase my pace, not wanting to hear anymore. I close door behind as I slide down against it, crying my eyes out.

You gotta be strong! Only mantra repeating in my head.

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