Marriage Without Love (Completed)

Chapter 29

Media : Save you tonight by one direction

Since these times are hard due to the well known pandemic, I did a little thing of 'doyouknowwhoyouare' just to bring a smile on your faces. I got the idea from the page created by Harry Styles with the same name and it did bring a smile on mine. So I was successful if you did feel good.

I packed my bag as fast as I could, throwing in my tooth brush and some basic things too. I then opened the window and got out through it as the main door was really dangerous. I jumped out and landed perfectly. Really, sometimes I am happy to be small (short) for being able to get through it.

I jog my way through the streets to the nearby park and settled down on one of the benches. I was now wearing a black hoddie too as it was the start of the winters and I feel cold real fast. My hood was on so that no one could recognise me or see my face. It's very much possible that all my feelings are all bare on my face right now because I can't stand it anymore. But people don't really pay attention and maybe it doesn't really show on my face, either way people don't generally know my mood. It's nice I guess. I sighed.

Things really are a mess.

My feelings were in a total turmoil. I was expecting too much when I should not have been. I was placing too much meaning to things than I should not have been. I was experiencing too much feelings where I shouldn't have been. Lastly, I have been meddling too much into other's business.

Will is not 'the others'. My subconscious spoke.

But he was never mine too. He has my heart but I can't have his heart ever. I don't have any right to meddle in his relationship but I did it anyway. So here is my punishment.

Really I feel so shitty. Why am I so nosy? I should not have done what I did. May be that slap really helped me come back to reality. I always had this stupid idea that I had to keep everyone happy and like it was my responsibility to gauge everyone's feeling or lift up their mood. But now, I am just exhausted. I feel so empty, so drained after absorbing everyone's negativity that my head is all messy. It's all my problem though. I can't blame it on anyone since no one asked me for it and I should learn to manage it on my own.

May be I am really not worthy of it all. The happiness. The love. A supporter.

Have I ever deserv-

"You deserve all the happiness of the world, girl! You ar-" I immediately jerked my head towards the source of voice with surprise to see two girls strolling. The red head said this to another black haired girl walking by her side on the footpath along the boundary of the park for people to enjoy strolling around. I just happened to hear this segment of their conversation as they passed from near me.

Click!

Something immediately clicked inside me. Instantly, everything was clear. It was surely a sign sent by the god Ganesha to me. Else how can I hear the only thing that I was asking the god to answer, being spoken of right at the exact time?

Tears brimmed my eyes as I realised how much god loves me. He has always been there for me. I haven't got anything easily but I still got it at the end. I have never been too religious and didn't pray a lot but I had always and will always believe in my Ganesha. I had been his worshipper since I was a kid and I always felt close to him. I always talk to him whenever I feel like and he usually answers them in my heart or some signs are always there to guide me.