Marriage Without Love (Completed)

Chapter 19

Media : Mercy by Shawn Mendes

"Of course I have to. You are not beautiful Snow or have any redeeming quality. Why would he ever be interested in you? He must be playing with you." Will spoke venomously.

Hearing this was like a blow straight to my heart. I know what he said was true but it still hurts. I know he doesn't mean to hurt me but he still keeps tearing me apart.

It's just that he got a hold on my heart and he doesn't even know his power.

He has said this before too but this time it hurts more. I wonder why. Tears threaten to spill out of my eyes. Controlling my emotions, I try to appear all cool. I have to get out of here now because I don't think I can handle it anymore.

I have grown weak.

I shouldn't be.

People generally improve so why is it that I am getting worse at this.

Hell with that.

Think about this later Snow. Right now, you need to control yourself.

"Oh...sorry. I gotta go now. I got an emergency case. Someone's having an acute attack of glaucoma. Sorry." I say as I pretend as if I just read a message from hospital informing me about the emergency.

Wow. Impressive. You are getting better at lying and pretending.

Would make an awesome actor.

Which I don't want to be.

My heart aches from the words he said; now some more from the lie I just spoke. Lieing someone is having emergency situation is not my cup of tea. It makes me feel even more guilty.

Guilt and sorrow ridden, I gather up my things from the table and get up. But I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down this time. I hope they didn't see that.

I have really become weak. I need to build my strength up again. This whining weepy Snow is not at all like me. Though it feels like this is all I am nowdays.

Also this time, his words hurt me even more. Have I fallen deeper in love with him?

That shouldn't have been the case so why?

I need to get away from him fast. The divorce needs to be soon or else I will be the only one with the broken heart. I know I won't be able to love anyone else. He was the only one. I will be single for my whole life.

But that does not sound bad. That's what I wanted from the beginning.

No marriage.

It's just like I never married anyone.

As if. You married and you fall in love. Even if it's like you never married, you never planned to fall in love too.

Yeah, right.

Never thought I would fall this hard. I chuckled and shook my head slightly as the thought crossed my mind.

But now, I need to get away from the man I fall in love with.

Yeah, I need to do that as soon as possible. Watching him with someone else is not bearable now. This needs to end. I can't remain in his vicinity anymore or else he would know.

*****Call begin*****

"Hey Clarke!" I greeted as soon as picked up the call.

"Snow...? What happened? You sound awful." Clarke asks worried.

"Will you save my day?" I chuckle.

"You know I always will. I am always there for you." He says sincerely.