Marriage Without Love (Completed)

Chapter 30

Media : Solo by Clean Bandit ft Demi Lovato

Sorry guys for being so late but I had to visit my fraternal aunt so I got late. That's why I don't do this promise thingy!

It happens when I plan to study too so now I have come up with a plan and that is ABSOLUTELY NO PLAN.

"I didn't order anyth-" I said as I opened the door but I was engulfed by two strong muscular arms instantly as he hugged me tightly.

I immediately melted in his embrace and my arms also snaked its way around him, my body and heart being the brutally honest instead of my brain.

"I am so glad you are fine!" Will sighed as I felt his body relaxing. His heart was beating fast like he had been running. Looking for me? Never.

I pulled myself away from him as reality hit me. I have already made a resolve that in this life from now on, I would remain single and alone for leaders walk alone.

Though you are no leader.

Yes. Because nobody, and i mean NOBODY, can love me. So I would love people BUT I will stay away, not expecting a thing from them. I will be a giver, not a taker. I will be happy.

Though you can't help expecting things from others.

That thing will take time changing but it is possible. I can't control others and neither can I stop them from doing wrong when they think that they are right. Also, it's given that if you love someone unconditionally, you will want to receive their love unconditionally too. You never suspect that they will take it for granted. But not every one thinks like me.

Suddenly a memory hits me.

My mom crying, banging her head with her hands and speaking shit like...

I don't even wanna remember it but still the whole scene plays in my head.

...she spoke while crying and shouting 'i will commit suicide like this Chester Bennington (imagine any celebrity). You fucktards keep insulting my brothers...when have I ever done anything for them. I will commit suicide I tell you. Then you will know...'

I don't know how to feel about that till date. I was traumatized. I never can understand why she did that. I mean my maternal uncles do never care about my mom. They are just here for the money. They borrowed my dad's hard earned money, for which my dad shed blood and tears, and used them for gambling which they lost and hence never returned that huge sum of money.

Still, those guys have no shame. They have absolutely no intention of returning that money, instead they ask for more as they apparently have no money to eat food but what is hilarious is that, they won't work hard to earn some but get it for free from relatives and live their lives lavishly while other peeps are working their asses off to feed them. They even have the audacity to complain to my maternal grandmother who is a cardiac patient that they are not getting their money only causing her more stress that is not good for health. Their intention for telling her very evident.

If that kind of money was ever available to my dad, he won't have to work like an ass like he did to reach where he is now. He started from zero and now he is a hero. My hero.

So for those kind of people, who show as if they can die for their sister but in need will not even hesitate to slit her throat instead, my mother traumatized me, my brother and my dad when we only stated some truth which didn't even compare to the their sins and wasn't even offensive in my view but you never know what hurts the other. It shows that in reality, who does she love more. My brother cried that day when I had literally not seen him cry in years. Though we all did cry that day except me....I did shed a few tears but no sobbing.