Marriage Without Love (Completed)

Chapter 6

Media : Find you by Nick Jonas

No one can truly love me.

I was certain now that it was true. My parents love me because I am their child. They wouldn't have loved me as a person if I wasn't. No one else has ever loved me. A love that is selfless, from heart without expecting anything out of it.

Well, I am not expecting now anyways. I know I don't deserve anything other than I already have. I am quite thankful for it.

It has been almost a week since the revelation of him being gay & his boyfriend being staying here. It's all right now. I am used to it, somewhat. I have accepted it & now I know much more about my husband's kind than I did before. I have read many mangas & now I am kind of fujoshi. I was able to empathize with him. Plus it helps me to detach myself from reality. Thinking about watching real thing is real drooling item. Yeah I have become a fangirl now.

I somewhat find pleasure seeing Will happy. Although it hurts me but still. I think it's the power of love. A power in which you feel both pleasure & pain in the same thing. A power in which you feel helpless & in control all together. A power which can conquer any one. And by anyone, I mean ANYONE.

I was ready for my job & was cooking breakfast for Will & Jeff. Yeah, Jeffrey Holland is Will's boyfriend. I prefer to call him Jeff instead of calling him Will's boyfriend because it hurts a little less. Though the intensity different by only a minute magnitude, the realisation every freaking time leaves me feeling a stabbing pain in my heart.

👆👆👆Jeffrey 👆👆👆

I was almost done with my breakfast when I see Will & Jeff enter the area in half sleepy state, with Will wearing only his boxer & Jeff wearing boxers & Will's T-shirt. How do I know it's Will's? Because the T-shirt was too big to be his own. A pang of pain hit my chest again but I covered it up with a now-so-familiar fake smile.

"Good morning!" I greet them.

"Good morning Snow!" Will smiles. Oh his smile. I think in dreamy state. My eyes on it's own travel along the contours of his body, staring at him like he was some kinda delicious candy. Well, a candy he was, an eye candy.

I am drove out of my dreams by Jeff's greetings. I blush, internally scolding myself for thinking like that. That was just impossible.

"So what would you like for breakfast for tomorrow?" I ask them after we ate today's silently. They we're talking in between but I really don't wanna hear it so I zoned out for good.

"Today's was awesome. Everything you cook is delicious." Jeff smiled. That was odd somehow. He always treated me kindly even though I was an outsider in their relationship. A rival to boast, though I am not potentially. Maybe he is a good person & sweet by personality. That's why Will like him?

"That is true. But as for preferences, I like donuts & he likes bananas. I mean he loves it." Will says mischievously while I stare at him confused. I follow his gaze only to find Jeff blushing furiously. Only then did I realise what he actually meant.

Yeah, I am slow at these kinda things. Reading mangas has helped somehow though. For those who are like me, there is comparisons. Donuts have holes & bananas....I hope you can guess. It's too common. Shit! They revealed the seme/uke (top/bottom) pair. Awww... seriously I have been wondering who is what since I started reading mangas.

I have talked to other readers too through comments on different mangas & other LGBT sites. They are lovely people. I don't know if they are really one of them or like me. It's not like that I consider them different from people who are heterosexual but it's just that they have different preferences & I accept it perfectly. I may also root for them. Vote for their equal rights. Be happy when they celebrate their success.

"Urmmm...I need to go. I have some work." Jeff says, blushing, as he leaves hurriedly. Will only chuckles as he gets up too, picking their breakfast plates with him, taking it to their room.

"Delicious food again Snow. Don't prepare the dinner for us though, we will go outside." He smiles as he walk backwards facing me, then turn around, he paces on the stairs.

"Okay." I smile too. It means I would be eating alone today too. Well it helps. Since I can concentrate on my research. Yeah I have been researching for a long time now for a medicine that can make the blind eyes able to see. I got interested when I met Alessia. I saw her everyday struggles & I know how much they really are. They are much more than one can think. Try blindfolding & then doing each of your everyday work. You would get it.

Recently I have been focusing on my work more & more. It helps in distracting me from things plus also drives me towards my goal, i.e., winning a Nobel Prize.

Yeah I am ambitious. I want to earn a name for myself. But I also want to help the people. It's not like I will sell the medicine at a very high price. It would be of reasonable cost so that everyone can afford.

I eat my lunch alone & put 'Find you' by Nick Jonas on play.

Eating alone leads to only one thing that is thinking. I start thinking about my research again spontaneously. I have already tried it on rats & studied their several generations. It was successful on them but what about primates? I have to test it on primates too but where to find subjects. It's difficult to test on monkeys.

Just as I was thinking, my mobile starts ringing.

"Hello Ale! Wassup girl?" I ask, smiling.

"He....*sniffing sound*...llo....*crying*..." Ale cried.

"Ale! What happened? Why are you crying?" I panicked. I don't wanna see this girl sad at any cost. She meant a lot to me. She is the one girl whom I get my strength from. She keeps smiling whether it is hard or happy times. She doesn't give in to anything! "Okay wait. I am coming there." I spoke softly as I hear more crying & sniffing on the other side. Just What the hell has happened?

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Hey friends!
Hope you liked the chapter. Did you like Jeff?
Now you know the Seme/Uke. What's your opinion?
Will Snow be able to handle this on a long run?
What happened to Alessia?

Have a great day!

Devil Evil