Falling hard.

Chap 13(You like him...

I start the day off with my worst class. I just kinda sit there and fly to day dream land. My land has everything! candy everywhere! All the musical instruments I could imagine. In my own land I could fly. There is someone standing there. I walk behind him and tap him on the shoulder so I can see the man. He slowly turns around and it's Luke. He grabs my face a pulls it into his. He is my dream guy?

"ehh miss. White! What's the answer" my math teacher asks me as he is breaking me out of day dream about.... Luke. "sorry what?"I stutter trying not to embarrass myself in front of the class. "pay attention" he commands. The rest of the class went like that him talking no one listening.

What I honestly don't understand is why I have to take math I want to be a singer not a mathatist! If that even exist. I see why I take English to have good writing skills. Witch I already have. P.e to keep fit when we dance on stage. Band to know other instruments. And choir is well singing duh! I walk to my next class witch is English.

I sit down in my class. First as usual. I sit here waiting for Luke to come though the door at any moment. But he doesnt and when the bell rings I can't help to be sad and disappointed. I can't even understand why I feel like this.

I walk slowly to choir. One reason is that I don't want to see Ashton so soon and have to face him. Well that's the only reason to be honest. Being new and most likely the only American in this school I haven't really made any friends besides Ashley and her friends. There her friends not mine. I need to make some other friends.

There he is sitting there on his phone. Oh ok I'm going to walk up to him and say hi.

"hello" I say to him sitting there. He looks up looks back down "hi". "Ashton" I say as I sit down "please dont hate me" I beg him. He puts his phone in his pocket and looks up at me with his light brown eyes. There so soft and sweet, I hope that this sweet guy doesn't hate me.

"I dot hate you. I just don't understand" he huffs. What doesn't he understand. I mean we weren't dating we went out that's all. "what?" I hesitantly say. "well we had such a good date and if
You liked Luke why didn't you just tell me".

"that's the thing I dont like luke" I lie to him and my self. You like him... My snobby subconscious speaks. "well then why we're you basically having sex with him yesterday". "I got cought up in the moment. I would never sleep with him" I say in my defense. I honestly. Don't know why I keep kissing him. And almost going all the way I'm still a virgin.

"well you would have if I didn't walk into the room" he Rudly remarks. "I'm sorry "I manage to say. "I mean he would just use you for sex like he does everyone. He would play you. How could you be so fucking stupid and play into it. He would have his way with you as many times as he wanted tell he got tired of you then dump you and we would all talk crap about how stupid you were. Then he could cross you off the list. Our... I mean his fucking list. I also don't under stand why he would chose you. Your nothing." he says. His words hit me like a ton of bricks. I get up from my chair trying to maintain my tears but I couldn't. "can I please leave" I ask the teacher while I'm already in tears. Ashton notices me leaving I think he also noticed my expression "wait aria" he calls behind me.

"your nothing" keeps replaying in my mind. He doesn't even know me to call me nothing. To even treat me like that. "wait I'm sorry" he calls. I turn around keeping a safe distance so I don't slap him. "what" I snap. "I'm sorry I didn't" he began to say before I speak up,

"no Ashton that's the thing your going to say you didn't mean it but if you didn't fucking mean it then why would you say that shit. I don't even know you for you to be calling me nothing" I yell at him. "your nothing because your a fucking whore! Yes. I said it WHORE! First me then Luke and calum next is mikey! You are nothing!" he yells in anger. I don't understand why he is being like this. "fuck you" I yell as I run off to my dorm.

This is crap! I feel like crap I'm not a whore the only one. I kissed was Luke. He might have just ruined this whole school for me. Ugh I throw open the door to see Ashley sleeping. I think I woke her. "hey" she says with a sleepy voice. She must have been sleeping for a while. "hi" I try to smile as I flop on my bed. "is school over?"

"no just not having a good day so I'm staying home". Staying home as on being pissed and ditching school. Oh why did I just say that I'm not ditching I'm sick? In the head! "oh" she smiles as he gets up from the bed. "so I have a question?"

"ok" she remarks as she changes her outfit. She was wearing that yesterday she must have stayed with mikey. "what runs 5 seconds of summer?" I ask and she just looked at me in confusion. I know the way i stated the question was wrong I guess it just came out that way. "who is the manager?" I finally say. She smiles as she gets into a pair of black skinny jeans. "my boy friend" she smiles. "oh, well can I come with you to band practice I need to speak with him" I smile.

Well should I even go... Ashton hates me but luke invited me and calum likes me. Would that be the best Desion. Well I'm so happy that I got them a gig so maybe. I should just go and tell Mickey then I will leave.

"yes def. But why?" she asks. Should I tell her before I tell the guys. Why not "I got them a gig in 2 days for some business man. Apparently some band bailed on him and he needed a band and
I just happen to record the two 5seconds of summer songs that I heard. It took a bit of convincing but he likes them. This is a huge oppertunity and I got it for them." I smile

"oh wow that's so exciting but why?" What does she mean but why what The hell I just did it out of the kindness of my heart! "what" i ask. "why set up a huge gig?" I shrug my shoulders "is it because you have a thing going on with Luke" I shake my head. "I know you do. We all know you intensely kissed or whatever. Now I'm just warning you that this is a bad idea. He Doesn't love people. I can't tell you why but you should keep away from the 5sos boys. All of them Ashton, Luke and Calum. I know you had somthing with all of them but it's a bad bad idea! Please just stay away. This is my last and only warning. Please. We will never ever speak of this again. You can't say I didnt warn you." She sits On her bed and plugs in her head phones.

That was beyond strange. She told me to stay ways from the 5sos what's that's suppose to mean. She warned me. Does that mean she doesn't want me hanging out with them. Maybe she is just jelly over my new found guys who seem to be all over me. That's it shes just jealous. Maybe she isn't maybe she is really trying to warn me. Ahah no.. I think I'm ok. Maybe.