Falling hard.

Chap 41 ( i cant lose her)

LUKE'S P.O.V

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"but Luke what if" Aria said now sitting on the blanket on the beach.

"no what ifs" I cut her off. I placed a small kiss on her face. "I love you and that's all that matters" I tell her.

That beautiful epic smile that I love appers on her face. God I really do love this girl. Shes just so amazing so perfect. "ok, let's get the apartment" she beams.

I know we're only 17 and getting an apartment seem to be so fast but I loved her and I want to live with her because it's so much more complicated staying in her dorm or her staying at mine.

"I love you" she says placing small kisses on my face.

"I love you more" I tell her pulling her closer so that she is straddling on me."how much" she says staring at me with those amazing blue eyes.

"to the moon and back" I kiss her.

"luke!" she yells. "Luke hemmings"

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I open my eyes to see a red faced Aria standing right In frount of me. I think she hit me.

"fuck Aria" I say a bit groggy.

"don't you fuck me! How could you fucking come to my dorm apologizing saying how sorry you were. How you loved me and I was the only girl you ever loved! Knowing minutes before you fucked another girl! You don't love me. I bet you never did. What how many other girls were you fucking while we were together. No how many girls did you fuck while we were talking. Fuck I don't want to know. Every one was right Luke hemmings doesn't love!! How could I be so fucking stupid! God I'm such a dumbass. Get out now! Never come back. Don't speak to me ever again" she yelled.

What the fuck how does she know. Why the hell is she acting like this. I'm so confused!

"I'm sorry, I didnt mean to I do love you" I say sitting up. I am sorry I love her I was pissed and that whore just happened to be there! I can't help the fact that I'm a man with a penis that needs to be pleased.

"fuck you luke! Dont try the whole I didn't mean to shit, what you didn't mean to put your dick into her vagina! Really! Knowing you suposelly loved me. Luke go fuck your self" She yelled. Whoa!

That's not the Aria I know. What is going on. I do love her but I did mess up and now it's over can't she fucking get that!

"look aria" I say.

"look luke go now!" she is beyond sad and pissed. I might as well just go. Ok I feel so bad I'm tring to hold back the strange tears that are forming. I love her I can't lose her. I really can't lose her. Damn I'm such a fuck up. Once I finally had something good I fucking lose her. No fuck no that's not happing.

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3 days! I went to her dorm, to Niall's dorm, I called her! I haven't seen her or talked to her in 3 days. Were the hell did she go? I know she's pissed but... I'm so confused and sad. I want to apologize. I want to be able to wake up and see her beautiful face. I want to spend all my time with her.

Where in the world did she disappear to?.

ARIA'S P.O.V

"honey breakfest is done" Allison calls to me. My dads girlfriend. She's really nice and really pretty. Plus she feeds me so much! Ugh I'm in heaven.

"I'm comming" I yell. Running down stairs to be greeted by eggs, french toste, and much more. Yummy! "thanks" I said sitting down on the island and taking a bite of my food.

So about 3 days ago my father called and told me he moved 10 minutes from the school, with his new girlfriend. It's a really nice house. Anyways he asked me to come and visit. So since I was ummm depressed over the whole.. Luke thing. I came.

It's been really amazing. I think Allison has made me gain almost 30 pounds! I love it here. "morning, my lovely ladies" my father said entering the kitchen. I know I wasnt to pleased with my father when I first came here but I have learned to love him, a bit more.

"so, I had so much fun, I love it here but I think I might have to be getting back to my dorm" I tell him taking a big bite out of my food. It's so sad, I love it here! Plus it's away from all those annoying people.

"well Aria, maybe you don't have to" my dad began. Smiling at Allison. "I was thinking becasuse you have to pay for your dorm, maybe you should move here. It's only a 10 minute walk and it's free plus you get food".

I want to but they can't control my life. I would hate that. "also the only rules are like, tell me when you'll be home super late, just so I know you didn't die. That's pretty much my only rule. So what do you say?"

I'm so sold! "yes!" I tell him jumping up and down. Oh another plus side is Nialls house is a house down! Oh I'm so exited. "really" my father beams.

I shake my head. This is awesome and amazing! I know my father is always trying to make up for the messed up stuff he has done and if he wants to do this then I'll let him.

"when do you want to go get my stuff?"

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LUKE'S P.O.V

"yeah" I finish the song.

"amaziballs!" calum cheers. Yes finally we're fucking done, with this crap, honestly I want to go drink or sleep. That's all.

"so tomorrow the gig. I'm so exited I mean if this all goes well we will have a regular gig and money like all the time" Michael says.

I can hear him talk but iv grown so use to ignoring people Im not listening. Honestly I don't give two flying fucks about what the hell he has to say. So I hope I can see Aria tommaorw I have a song I want to sing to her. Let's hope she will go.

"luke, Lucas! Luke!" I can hear calum yell. Breaking me out of my thoughts.

"yes?" I ask a bit annoyed I want to sleep.

"never mind. Practice is over". I get up toss my guitar on the couch and walk out with out saying a word. I can hear foot steps behind me and I turn to see fucking Ashton standing there.

"what? Here for another ass beating?" I scoff. He chuckles "funny, no I'm here to tell you in the next three days..mrs. aria will be mine".

"hey fucker guess what! I don't fucking care! Plus she like dissapered." I tell him unlocking my car door.

"no! She just moved in with her dad. After the show tommarow were hanging out".

"why are you still talking?" I ask. Turing to face him. I'm beyond fucking tired of his shit. How come he knows where she is but she won't even bother to tell me. Fuck Ashton I'm so over his fucking shit.

"you know just to tell you. To see how pissed you will be" he smirked.

"well I'm not pissed" I'm so beyond pissed. "it's awesome she is still friends with you" I place a fake smile on my face and turn around. I start to walk off when he says. "well it's a date so she has moved on from you and you know Luke, I will have her on my list in three days" he laughed.

That, fucker, breath luke breath. I can't kill him. I just need to figure out a way to make her mine again. I can't lose her. She's all I think about. She's all I want no, she's all I need. Aria white is me addition I can't lose her. She will be mine, even if it's the last thing I do.

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