Falling hard.

Chap 38 (you like the idea of him!)

I slowly get up from my bed not trying to wake Luke. I slide my shoes on and a jacket.

I walk along the path to 'the hang out'. What could Ashton possibly want. I mean when I'm with him... A lot of the time I have fun with him. He is a super cool sweet guy but I have never had strong feelings for him. Like I have for Luke. Maybe once or twice I have considered being with Ashton just because he is sweet and cares for me. The 6 almost 7 weeks in this school and Ashton has been there for me. Even after I yelled at him turned him down he still is here.

I don't know why he is still here. I would have left. And the other night now that I can fully remember.. It was great. An amazing night and if I didn't have Luke on my mind and I wasn't scared of losing it maybe I would have done it with Ashton. I mean we have this strange connection. That must be why he keeps coming back he sees that strange connection also.

I finally reach this spot and ash isn't here yet. So I'm going to sit on the swing.

Last time I was here was with ash and cal. Cal's a sweet guy he tryed to get with me but unlike Ashton he can get a hint. Ashton, oh Ashton... Maybe I do have a hint of feelings for him deep down in side. But I'm sure I love Luke.

But why and how do I love Luke. It doesn't make any since. I say our story is just that a story.. Something that would be put into a book. But I just know that it's right and it's ment to be. I have been falling for Luke the moment I seen him.

"aria?" I turn to face Ashton. I get up from the swing and then decide to sit back down.

"hi" I say swinging again.

"hey. Thanks for coming" he says walking in front of me. "yea. So what's this about. It's 2 in the morning and I'm tired" I tell him not trying to make eye contact.

"I'm sorry. I just needed to talk to you." he said with emotion in his voice.

"I know you made that clear though text. And Luke doesnt control me" I said kind of sassy. That was a bit uncalled for but..

"I know. Sorry about that" he said biting his lip.

"so anyways". "oh yea. Umm so you see I mean this is hard to say" he says pacing back and fourth " it hurts knowing that what happened you like.. Fuck... I mean I can't like say this without you being such.... Shit. You know what Aria white I love you" he blurts out.

Fuck! What do I say. "ash" he cuts me off.

"I know your going to say oh I dont feel the same I love Luke. Blah blah blah blah ! I know. But I think you don't really love luke you like the idea of him! You like that he's bad and he is hard to get and he cusses and he was an ass to you but then all of a sudden he seen something in you that made him become not an ass. But Aria you don't see it. Im here right in front of you I have always been. I'm different not bad different normal different. I have always been here and you look right past me but I know you have a hint of feeling for me. Since the day I meet you I seen something in you that I liked. After the time you told me it was Luke and not me I tried to get over you but that seemed impossible. Then the other night oh the other night. We had such an amazing time. I know you felt that. When I touched your body it was amazing.. I can't get you out of my head. If you want to be friends I'll be your friend and when Luke leaves you and you become a heartbreak girl I will be here for you standing by your side." he finishes.

Oh my... I mean whoa. I didn't see him saying all of that. I'm speechless. I don't want to say anything to him. I mean he just spilled all of his heart out. It didn't change much. It changed my mind a bit. I do realize that he has been there and I had a bit of feelings for him but I love luke.

"see nothing. You can't say anything because you know it's true. Aria" he smirked.

I got up from the swing and walked past him. I have nothing to say I'm leaving. I try to leave but he grabs my arm. "please before you storm out because of whatever. Tell me you don't love me and have never loved me or had feelings for me so I know that we're just friends".

I take a deep breath and turn to face him. "ash. I love Luke" I state now staring into his eyes. "not what I asked" he said grabbing me tighter.

"no no no no. I love luke" I pull away. And start walking before he starts laughing. "he doesn't love you. Your just a game to him!"

I turn back around an stomp over to him poking him on the chest. "why the hell do you keep saying that!" i yell.

"Luke fucking hemmings dosnt love! He doesn't have the ability to love. He is one of the cold hearted smug prick asses that just use." then he was cut off by Luke saying "Aria!"

Oh fuck he found me. I'm scared to turn around and face him. I gulp and turn to face a super pissed Luke.

"luke?" I ask to innocently.

"really! I told you not to see him any fucking more. Shit fuck" he pulls on his hair.

"you don't fucking control her. Thats why she is here with me" Ashton smirks.

"shut up" I mumble so Ashton can only hear. Luke had a timper and I know Luke will kill him.

"hey ash! Shut the fuck up! Now" he barks. I walk over closer to Luke. "no! Fuck you Luke!". No no he is pushing him.

"Luke lets go" I try to push him. "no fuck that shit. See if you didn't fucking come see this prick and listen to me I wouldn't have to beat the shit out of this fucking dumb ass prick. Fuck Aria why be such a bitch and come here!".

What? "luke! You dont control me. Fuck".

"I wouldn't have to control you if you didnt fucking whore around and get you know by him. And then maybe we would have issues! This is all your fucking fault" he yelled in my face.

I started to cry because what happened to him what is going on. He is so pissed. I feel so bad.

"shit Luke fuck ass whole you made her cry! Now I now why she loves me and not you!"

Then Luke leaps forward and tackles Ashton to the floor.

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