Undercover

38. Hospitals

I woke up in a bed. There were cables and needles and tape all over my arms. I heard the steady beep of the machines that sounded a lot closer than they were. I opened my eyes and realized that Cayden, Ingrid and Finn were all in here. It didn't make any sense to me. Aiden was the one that had been injured. I was fine. A panic attack did not automatically guarantee a hospital visit. So why the hell was I here? All I wanted to know was how Aiden was doing. I needed to know that he wasn't dead. I needed the reassurance that he was going to come back home and be the annoying guy I loved so much. I just wanted him to be here already. I wanted to have his arms wrapped around me so that I could feel like I wasn't going to lose my shit any second. I wanted him right here. Right next to me.

"Aiden? Where is he? I need to know where he is?" I sat up on the bed and threw the covers off of me. I didn't need to be here. I ripped the IV needle off and trust me, it is not as painless as the movies make it seem. Also not as easy. It took me like three minutes to completely remove them.

As soon as my siblings saw what was happening, they called the doctors and they all rushed in to sedate me or whatever the hell was happening.

"I don't care what you guys are planning to do. I just need to know how Aiden is. I need to know if he's okay."

The doctors and the nurses looked at each other and then turned to me. But there was nothing coming out of their mouths. They had that look on their faces. The ones that they give to the family of patients when their family member has died.

"Is he alive?" I screamed as panic started to course through every vein and artery in my body. Nobody was giving me an answer and I needed to know. I just wanted to know if he was okay. I felt like he had lost so much blood. I didn't know if he had other wounds. I went straight to the one I was placing pressure on. I just wanted him to be okay. I needed him to be okay. With Daniels dead, we should have been allowed to live our lives. Instead, I'm wondering what the hell was going on. I think they sedated me because I felt my eyelids getting heavier.

When I woke up next, I was surrounded by police. I felt a panic attack coming on until I felt someone beside me. They gently placed their hand on my shoulder. It took me a while to recognize Finn. I looked around the room and both Cayden and Ingrid were gone.

"Finn...what's going on?" I asked him.

"Investigations are happening." He answered simply.

"Aiden...is he okay?"

"Natalia...it's best that you focus on you."

"No. Nothing happened to me. I'm fine. I need to know how Aiden is doing. Please. Nobody wants to say anything, and it's driving me mad. If he's dead, just tell me. but tell me something. Anything is better than not knowing."

"He's alive, Natalia. He's just in critical condition. Do you remember what happened?"

"It's all my fault, Finn. I let the man in. I let him in and he had a gun. Aiden was only trying to protect me. The next thing I know I hear two gunshots. I know that one hit Aiden but I don't know if the other one hit him. I ended up with Aiden's gun somehow and before he could shoot me, I used the gun to shoot at him. Did you guys get him?"

"We didn't have to."

"What do you mean? Of course you have to. He shot at an officer. He had his uniform on too."

"He's dead."

"What?" my hand went to cover my mouth. I remember shooting him and him coming down, but it never occurred to me that he was dead. It would make sense that he was though, because he didn't move again. I was too focused on trying to keep Aiden alive that it didn't occur to me to check if we were still in danger.