My BestFriend, Grayson

Chapter 29 - Cliffs Edge

Grayson came back around 1AM, I couldn't talk to him. Instead, I showered, said goodnight to them both and slept in Gray's room. I couldn't fall asleep, I checked the time every 10 minutes. I still hadn't come to grips with what had happened, I didn't plan for this. How could I tell Grayson? I promised not to hurt him, he's my best friend and I told him I love him!
I did. I wasn't lying when I said it. I loved Grayson, I wanted to protect him from everything. Why did I let it happen?

Did I love Ethan too?!

'Grayson sent a text'
I unlocked my phone and opened the text.
'I can hear you shuffling around, are you okay?'
'Yeah, just struggling to sleep 🙃'
'I'll come keep you company then'
'If you come upstairs, I definetly won't sleep 😂 I'll see you in the morning, Gray'
'Okay, goodnight 💚'
'Night 💗'

Cuddling with Grayson all night was the last thing I needed right now. It was 3am but all I wanted was to call Beth and have her tell me everything will be okay and Gray won't hate me. I knew she'd scream at me and probably want to throw me out of a window though.

The next morning, I tried so hard to act normal around the both of them. Grayson kept asking if I was okay, in my head I was like "yeah sure, I mean I fucked your brother and I'm considering jumping out of a window but I'm fine".
"I'm gonna go get ready, I feel like going for a walk today". I made up any excuse to get out of the living room and by myself. I knew I'd have to tell Grayson at some point, I couldn't keep it from him. I knew I'd have to pay for what I did, even if that meant our friendship.

Friendship? You told him you loved him, Kyla!?

I literally couldn't be bothered with today. I threw on comfy clothes, natural makeup and sighed at myself in the mirror. Ethan hadn't spoken to me yet today, he smiled and winked a few times, but that was it. I checked my stories on Wattpad, I'd missed out on a load of comments. I took my time reading through them, a few made me laugh. One girl kept commenting that she'd throw ducks at me if the story didn't go her way, that's a lot of ducks.

"Kyla, I'm going surfing. Do you wanna come?" Grayson said as he opened his bedroom door.
"I'm actually gonna go for a walk by myself today, sorry Gray." He came in and walked over to me.
"No worries. I'll see you later then" he kissed my cheek and left again.
I headbutted my face against the wall a few times before leaving the Warehouse.

After walking for about 20 minutes, I came to some cliffs. I sat a few inches away from the edge, looking out at the water below me. It would have been silent if it weren't for the millions of thoughts in my head. I closed my eyes to try to make sense of everything that had happened, everything I'd done, but all I saw was Ethan last night. Unlocking my phone, I reread messages between Grayson and I from before I had come to LA. I missed being this close to him.

I've messed everything up...

I laid down, staring at the clouds, hoping for some kind of guidance. I loved Grayson, I did, but Ethan had a hold on me that I, apparently, couldn't control. I wanted to be with Gray, but I fucked that up. I couldn't tell him, how could I break his heart like that?

I don't remember much else about being on that cliff but I remember waking up to a call at 3pm.
"Kyla? Where are you? You've been gone all day?" Ethan's voice came theough my phone.
"I'm on a cliff."
"What?! Our cliffs?" He sounded concerned.
"No.."
"I'm coming to find you."
"Please don't. I want to be alone for a while."
"Kyla, you've been gone for 5 hours... I'm coming to find you." He hung up.

(You done fucked up there, Kyla.

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