My BestFriend, Grayson

Chapter 37 - Completely

Lisa showed up a few hours after I had my breakdown over Grayson. I hadn't actually told Ethan why I were so upset, but he guessed correctly. We sat downstairs with Lisa on the sofa.
"Ethan, dear. Could I have some tea?"
"Sure, Ma". Lisa looked at me and whispered.
"Are you okay sweetheart? You seem upset." I nodded at her and bit my lip. I couldn't tell her what happened, Ethan said not to and I didn't want to burden her with any more problems than she already had right now.
"Ethan, where's your brother?" Lisa called into the kitchen. Ethan brought a cup of tea to Lisa and sat next to me on the sofa. I felt a lump in my throat again so I grabbed my bottle of Fanta from the table and gulped it down.
"I'm not sure, Mom. He just said he was going out" he lied.
"I see, probably surfing then." She looked directly at me, I could tell she was still trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I'll admit that it made me a little uncomfortable.
"Well I actually came to give you the date for the funeral." Ethan looked down at the floor, he clenched his fists a little, trying to stop himself from crying. I knew he was trying to act strong for Lisa. I grabbed his hand, he looked at me and half smiled.

"When is it?" he replied finally.
"November 23rd." He nodded and looked at me. "Kyla, I want you to come. Just for support for me and Gray."
"Is that okay?" I asked Lisa.
"I'd love for you to be there, Sweetheart" she smiled at me.
"I'll be there"
"Okay well, I'll leave you two to it. Ethan, do you mind driving me home?"
"No, I'll grab my coat, one sec" he said running upstairs.

Lisa walked over to me and sat beside me.
"I don't know what happened between you and Grayson, but I can tell you're upset over it. He'll forgive you for whatever it is, I promise. Just give him time."
"How do you kn-"
"I know my Son. This isn't the first time he's run away from home because something's upset him. He's got a lot going on in his head right now but... Grayson loves you. We can all see it." She hugged me and then left the Warehouse to stand next to Ethan's truck.
"I'll be right back, okay?" Ethan said before kissing me on the cheek and leaving.

While Lisa's words comforted me, I couldn't help but let out a few tears as I was left alone in the Warehouse. Rereading the messages between Grayson and I felt like torture yet it also made me feel slightly better.

I missed him, I missed him so much.

I wanted to text him, call him... I wanted him to actually speak to me... but he asked me not to. I'd already hurt him enough and Lisa told me to give him time.
I held his hoodie close to my heart, laid down on the sofa and scrolled my social media in an attempt to take my mind off Gray. Instead, Twitter had become a torture chamber. All I saw was millions of Tweets about Grayson, about the both of us. People's fan art of the both of us.. People tagging us in selfies we took together, saying we were a cute couple and we should date. Of course, none of them knew I was actually dati-... No, not anymore.

Tears began running down my cheeks, I couldn't bare to be here anymore.

I'd made a decision.

I walked to Gray's room, grabbed my suitcase and started packing. My ticket home was an open return, meaning I could leave whenever I wanted. Part of me felt horrible knowing I'd be going home and leaving without fixing things between Gray and I. Not to mention not even saying goodbye to either of the twins, but I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't stand to be in LA right now. I needed Grayson but I'd already fucked that up. I needed Beth, my Dad... Just someone who wasn't related to the twins.

Carrying my suitcase down the stairs, I took a few deep breaths before stepping outside the Warehouse and beginning to walk down the street. I figured instead of calling an Uber, I'd walk, giving me time to change my mind. The airport was about 20 minutes away anyway, I'd walked longer than that before.
After a few minutes, I came to Gray and I's beach. I stood next to the steps that we'd walk down to watch the sunset everyday. This was the first time, in LA, that I'd watch the sunset alone. I didn't mind being out late by myself, I found comfort in it, besides it was only 9:50pm.
Sitting alone on the rocks brought too many memories back, I couldn't help but cry again. I felt pathetic for crying so much over Gray especially when we had only been dating a few days, but I loved him and it felt so much longer. This was the guy I'd crushed on for years, I'd spoke to on FaceTime everyday for a month, I'd slept next to, kissed and shared so much of my secrets and life with. I wanted him to know I'd do anything to fix what I'd done to him.

This was the first time I fully regret what happened between Ethan and I.

Part of me decided I wanted to stay, until I looked back at the breakup message Grayson had sent me a few hours ago.

That was it.
I'd made my decision, I was flying back to England. I couldn't hurt Gray anymore.
I needed to erase myself from his life completely.

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