Thomas Sanders Sides One-shots

What Have I Done?

I stared out of the window locked in my own thoughts while people banged on my bedroom door.

I knew that I'd slip up one of these days, it would only be a matter of time and slip I did.

I sighed and looked down at my fingers where they were locked together around my knees. I was sitting on the window ledge with my knees drawn up to my chest for what little comfort I could get.

I hadn't meant to say what I said but it just slipped out.

I flinched at a particularly loud bang on my bedroom door. Whoever was out there was being very persistent but there was no way I could face any of them.

I stared out of the window again and watched as rain began to fall, almost as if the weather was reflecting my mood. My eyes fixed onto a drop of rain as it slowly made its way down the window.

"Virgil! We know you're in there!" came the angry yell from Roman and I flinched again. "don't make me kick this door down!"

My eyes widened at that and I looked around for anything that could stop him. The gentle patter of rain against glass caught my attention and I had an idea.

As Roman started kicking the door I unlocked the window and carefully crept out, closing it quietly behind me.

I ignored the rain and cautiously climbed up onto the roof. I was safe up here.

I settled down in a spot where I wouldn't fall and thought back on what'd happened.

*flashback*
I sat on the sofa struggling to understand why Patton had invited me to the movie night. Despite the whole 'accepting anxiety' thing I still hadn't really fit in and I still felt like an outcast.

Roman and Logan seemed to feel just as awkward about me being there but Patton insisted so they didn't say a word.

"c'mon Virgil it's your turn to pick a movie!" Patton said happily and as the attention landed on me I felt my nervousness increase.

The result of that was I couldn't think of an appropriate movie and just sat in silence for several minutes until Roman said "well if he can't think of anything let's just skip him."

I would have agreed but Patton was adamant that I get to choose a movie.

The pressure to pick a movie started to overwhelming me and I could feel my breath catching in my throat as I got closer to a panic attack.

I did the one thing I could to get rid of my anxiety. I lashed out.

"Patton just back off! I don't have any suggestions for movies because Roman only likes his damn Disney movies, Logan hates anything where an ounce of imagination is needed and you can only watch childish movies with no swearing or gore or absolutely fucking anything!" I shouted and immediately regretted it as tears welled up in Pattons eyes.

I saw the glares from Roman and Logan so I ran to my room and locked the door.
*end of flashback*

I felt tears run down my face. I'd tried to hold back so many mean comments over the past few weeks but it's what I do and all of that built up into that one moment.

That happened a few days ago and I haven't left my room since. I couldn't stomach the idea of being confronted by Roman or Logan. I didn't even want to think about how much I'd upset Patton.

I sighed and put my face on my knees, not caring that I was now soaked from the rain which had gotten heavier since I'd climbed onto the roof.

I knew I wouldn't be able to avoid them forever but I was still going to try. It was pretty terrifying when Roman got angry and I wasn't sure if I could forgive myself for making Patton cry.

He'd been so accepting of me and always encouraged me when the others put me down. He didn't deserve the way I spoke to him.

I shuddered as the wind picked up and made me feel the cold more but I was reluctant to move.

Eventually after maybe an hour had passed I decided to face them and slowly began to climb down.

I was stiff from sitting in the same position for so long and my teeth were chattering from the cold.

I got to the edge of the roof and suddenly realised I wasn't going to be able to get in very easily because the outer ledge was rather narrow.

I gripped the edge of the roof as tight as possible as I tried to get a foot hold on the window. I somehow managed to balance precariously on it and I pushed the window to open it.

The window stayed firmly shut and I started to panic. I couldn't get back in and I'd have to stay outside in the pouring rain and strong winds.

I gulped a few breaths to try and calm myself down as I examined the window closer. I noticed there was a key in the lock of the window. My eyes widened in horror. Someone had locked me out.

Was it on purpose or did they not know I was out there and just did it because of the rain?

I peered throw the window and saw my door had been kicked down which meant that Roman had probably been the one to lock the window. I shivered as the wind picked up again but continued to look through the window to see if anything else had been moved.

I noticed that the notebook that had been on my desk had suddenly disappeared and started hyperventilating again. It had all my drawings and thoughts written in it.

I climbed back onto the roof with some difficulty as my body was getting tired and I wasn't focusing as much, my mind still stuck on the fact I'd been locked out and my notebook stolen.

I suddenly had an idea which I was reluctant to go through with but it was the only way I could get back inside.

I wondered who's window to try and go through; Logan would lecture me about being on the roof and the incident, I didn't think I could face Patton and he'd be too worried about me being on the roof. Which left Roman.

I shuddered at how pissed of Roman was likely to be but I deserved it after talking to Patton that way so I crawled towards the side of the roof where Romans window was.

I had a hold of the edge of the roof and swung myself so my feet were on the outer window ledge. I looked through the window and noticed Roman reading something. My eyes widened ad I noticed it was my notebook and I tried to scramble back up but it was too late he'd noticed me.

Roman walked over to the window with shock on his face and I quickly pulled myself up onto the roof again.

I heard the window open and Romans voice floated up. "Virgil, come down. We need to have a conversation, I promise not to shout at you because I saw how it affects you by what you wrote."

I closed my eyes and sobbed, my secret were no longer secrets.

Roman must have heard me because suddenly he appeared on the roof next to me. I gasped and tried to get away but suddenly my foot slipped and I started sliding down the roof.

I let out a scream of terror and grabbed the edge, now dangling from a three/four storey drop.

Roman quickly crawled towards me and muttered "its OK I've got you. Hold on." he grabbed one of my hands but the other one slipped through his and the only thing keeping me from plummeting to the ground was his grip on my one hand which was in turn gripping the roof.

I could see his knees slowly slipping on the wet roof and I let out a small sob before saying "if you don't let go you're going to fall too."

Roman frowned and said "I'm not letting you go."

I sighed and reached up with my other hand and pushed his hand off of the one holding the roof as I said "I'm not worth dying for"

With that I let go of the roof and fell, the only thought in my mind was that I never got the chance to apologise to Patton. Then I hit the ground and I knew no more.

This is another chapter to keep you occupied while I write the longer stuff which I hope will be worth the wait. Also the number of comments and votes on this is so overwhelming! I'm so happy that people are enjoying my stuff and I just can't believe it.