Dating one of my brothers friend // jonah marais

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Yes we fight, yes we make up. Yes, we have our disagreements and agreements but isn't that part of being in a relationship. Personally i think if you don't have fights something is wrong. Yes we parted ways once, that doesn't make us an on and off relationship.

Yes i feel dejected at times but that's just part of life. If i thought this relationship was unhealthy I'd never stay.

"Are you gonna answer me?"

I was knocked out of thoughts when i look up to see Jonah still there waiting for me to respond.

"Why are you doing this? Why are you asking these questions? " i asked as i get up and leave the room.

And again I'm back to pacing up and down outside the hospital. I'm already stress with being here for the past month and now he's asking all these questions. Questions like these stresses me out, all i want is for him to get better so we can go home. I'm mentally not ready for this.

Bri🦄
It's happening

Daniel💯
Be there with the smoothies

I sat on the ground waiting for daniel to come. This has become a regular thing, i text daniel and he carries three smoothies for me as we talk about my feelings. Sometimes i feel like I'm putting my burden on him but he keeps saying it's okay, that he's here for me.

I then got a text and i look to see it was jonah.

Jonah❤👅
Where'd you go?
Can you come back?
Please

Bri🦄
I'm just outside, give me some time
I'll be back ❤

I closed my phone and put it in my back pocket as i see daniel leaves his uber and walks up to me. "Hey" he said sitting beside me.

I'm...... I'm really stressed. I keep telling myself and i keep acting like I'm not but i really am ~ Brianna

We all are, especially zach. This entire thing has put zach in a different world. He's still not over Amelia and he's really worried about Jonah. Don't think you're the only one tearing up 24/7 ~ Daniel

Jonah asked me some questions a while ago and they scare me that he's questioning our relationship ~ Brianna

You've slept in the hospital for the past month, beside an unconscious body. Afraid of leaving or losing him. I don't think there's nothing to question about you guys relationship. ~ Daniel

Daniel, it think there's more to it than that. After he gets better, are we going back to the fights and our doubtful trust for eachother ~ Brianna

Do you trust jonah? ~ Daniel

Yes ~ Brianna

Do you love jonah ~ Daniel

Yes ~ Brianna

Do you think it's worth it ~ Daniel

Guessing on how much i sacrificed.... yes ~ Brianna

Then why do you keep changing up ~ Daniel

What do you mean ~ Brianna

The last time we talked, you said it helps when you guys fight. Because it shows how you guys feel and what you guys are thinking. But now you're saying the fights aren't helping it's just making things worst ~ Daniel

I was told communication was good in a relationship. So i think i was doing the right thing but it just make me question my life ~ Brianna

But not communicating makes it a toxic relationship. Are you going to stay in a toxic relationship ~ Daniel

I thought i was doing the right thing when i took a break but that didn't help. When i was away it made me feel worst, it hurted more so I'm not leaving again ~ Brianna

So you rather stay in a toxic relationship ~ Daniel

I groaned as i heard the word again. "I hate that word" as memories fill my head and tears form in my eyes

"I've been in a toxic relationship. I know what it feels like and this doesn't feel the same. I can't do this no more, i want it all to stop" i said getting up

Daniel then got up "and i hate when you say that" i then understood what he means.

Daniel i didn't mean like that ~ Brianna

The last time you said that, you know what you did ~ Daniel

I know and i promised ~ Brianna

I know but you gotta understand, now go in and talk with him. We'll all stop by later ~ Daniel

I hugged daniel bye before entering the hospital, as i walk to his room i remember my relationship before i met jonah. I wiped away my tears as i enter the room.

"I'm sorry" he said has i sat beside him

No...... just stop ~ Brianna