Everything »mfz and jvo (discontinued)

chapter 7

edited

•do you care?•
mack's pov

my heart dropped. me and johnny were close to kissing. i no longer wanted to be here. "mackenzie?" the male figure calls out and i turn back. great, now i've gotta deal with questioning from my ex. "can i help you?" i snap back. i was angry and upset at the same time. he'd done this to me, owed him no explanation. "i just want to talk okay?" he says and i stare at him.

"you meant everything you did. don't come with your lies hayden. you know that i actually liked you and yet you have moved on so quickly." i tell him, calmly. i realise i cannot deal with this the angry way. "you saw that huh?" he whispers, and i nod. johnny and soph were quiet. they wanted nothing to do with this and i can guess why.

hayden walked swiftly to where i was, at the bottom of the stage stairway and looked at me. i knew he had fallen for annie long before this whole thing happened. "i could tell you liked her. but you could've waited until the day after to tell me..." i whisper, slowly letting my eyes tear up. "she didn't exactly say yes. she said i'd need to sort this out first." he tells me and i of course understand. it's not his fault that i couldn't give him the kind of love that he wanted.

"how did you find me here?" i ask him, and he looks at johnny. that lying bastard. i look forwards, not directing my eyes at johnny and continue to walk towards the exit. "can we please talk?" he asks me once more. i turn around and look at him. "meet me at mine."

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"i do have great respect for you and i know that, this wasn't the way to end things and i'm sorry. i truly am." he sighs, sitting down on the little bean bag beside my bed and looks down at his hands. "love is one strange thing." i tell him, and he chuckles agreeing.

"when did you star l-liking her?" i ask him, avoiding awkward silence. he looks at me dead in the eye before answering. "about a month ago. we started hanging out a lot and i just-" he tells me but cuts himself off as he sees me look down, i presume. i was trying not to cry, that's why i decided it would be best to just look down. "i-it's okay. tell me all about it." i whisper and he takes my hand. we both look at each other and he places his hand on my cheek. i deadass know that this will be a mistake, i'll regret this for a long time but i lean in anyways. he leans in too and we kiss. our very last kiss. it didn't have that chemistry but it was a goodbye kiss.

"go get her. g-go. i want you to be happy okay?" i smile through my tears. might have been a fake smile but i call it a supportive smile. he may be my ex, but i can't hold a grudge over love. he walks over to me and we hug for the longest time. he waves goodbye, wiping a few tears and walks away.

now that i think of it, johnny is a fucking idiot. it's our last year of high school but it's like he loves to get involved in that typical high school bullshit. i mean come on, this whole thing was a trap. i know one thing that will get my mind off everything, and it's going to be quite painful

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"KENZI-" i hear, and i quickly look back trying to hide myself. shit. he drops his phone on the ground and starts breathing heavily with tears forming in his eyes. i don't actually give to craps about this whole thing. once an addiction begins, it's hard to end it. i looks up at him and rapidly regret doing it. my mascara dripped, my hands had blood all over them, a few pieces of my hair fell on my face and i held a photo of hayden and i on a frame. i could tell his tears were taking over his emotions.

"e-ever heard of trespassing. well you're doing it right now. g-get out." i tell him weakly but he ignores me, grabbing the razor i was holding and throwing it out the window. "hey! that's mine you bastard!" i yell, trying to get up and so i nearly do but i couldn't. "WHY?" he yells at me. he has no right in his damn mind to yell at me.

"get the fuck out." i tell him, breathing in and out, multiple times. i could feel the panic attack knocking at my door but i tried my hardest to conceal it.

"why the heck would i do that. i've tried to make you smile so many times but it's like you don't care! the only reason why i told hayden was because i knew you needed that last goodbye. i knew you needed to talk to him and sort things out but it's like you only give two shits about yourself!" he yells at me and i finally get up to look at him straight in the eye because this needs to be said, face to face.

"first of all, fuck you. second of all, you act like it's all my fault for what reason?! get your damn facts straight because boy, if we're holding grudges here then i think it should be me holding the grudge not you. i only give two craps about myself huh? is that what you really think? can't you fucking admit you've had a massive little crush on me since what, 1st grade?! so don't come blame it on me now, oh no don't you ever blame your shit on me!" i cough lightly before continuing. "and guess what, i never liked you. yeah. you heard me, i never, fucking, liked you. stop holding little elementary school bullshit on me." i scream not realising that i had just said that. i had lied, i knew that i had lied yet i didn't say shit.

i start getting a feeling of regret inside me as he grabs the frame of me and him on my shelf and smashes it onto the floor , then kicks my bed side table and looks back at me, i squint and back away slowly. did i even notice i was bleeding too much. little drops of blood dropped as slowly as the clock ticked . tick tock , tick tock... it was like he had announced that our friendship was officially over.

i glance over at him and he was getting ready to leave the exact same way he came in from. serves him right to hear the truth. but now that i think of it, i should've waited until i was not bleeding because now, i'm lying on the floor unconscious.

welp it's a long chapter but i don't even know if you'll like it :,) well thanks for reading and TYSM FOR 300+ VIEWS and 27 VOTES love you guys