Everything »mfz and jvo (discontinued)

chapter 28

•after the after party•
mack's pov

"morning sleepy head" he said, with his morning voice looking down at me. i looked at him shocked and with a huge headache, hangover shit. i drank way too much. i quickly got up and looked down at myself, oversized sweater? i don't remember changing either! "w-who changed me?" i asked, staring into his devilish looking eyes that could sweep a girl off her feet miles away. "yourself." he replied smirking. "it's not funny you idiot, where are my clothes? why the fuck did i even sleep here?" i yelled at him, keeping my distance as he approached. "you certainly didn't mind my company last night."he snapped back at me as i headed for the door, noticing my clothes on the way and picking them up. "oh don't play the fucking innocent game with me John" i was getting so mad, his oblivion annoyed me so much and it's now or never isn't it.

"i'm not oblivious to anything, i'm not the slut here. i mean wow! me, hayden, then my best friend. you've outdone yourself" he smirked, kissing his teeth and rolling his eyes after a while. i did not reply, because i don't want him to get on my nerves. "i know you hear me kenzie, don't think that just because you told the teacher to fuck off, that you are a 'changed person' " he said getting louder with each word. "what do you want from me!?" i yelled at him as he pulled my wrist and held it tighter with each breath i took. "s-stop it! you're hurting me!" i screamed, trying to get somebody's attention. "nobody's home, just you and me." he said looking at me in the eye before throwing me against his bed. "what the f-fuck do you think you're doing?" i questioned shaking as he walked towards me.

i shuffled backwards to get away from him but he grabbed my wrist once more and i screamed. this time louder than before. "i'm not going to do anything to you!" he growled, letting go of my wrist and sitting himself down on the corner of his bed, placing his head on his hands. "then why did you just throw me against the bed and pull my wrist? i'm not a fucking idiot you bipolar piece of crap." i yelled at him looking down at my hands and waiting for his responce. "last night, you said some-, some stuff. is it true?" he asked, still staring at the floor and not making any more akward silence. "w-what did i even say?" i replied, i did and do not remember a single thing about last night after i got drunk of course. "never mind. let's get you home" he says, avoiding the subject. and shit i'm screwed, i can't go tonight, i reak of alcohol, i'm in someone else's clothes and plus i don't want to go home.

"i can't do that! my mom doesn't know that i wen't to Brielle's party. she just thinks i slept over.." i confess and he looks at me. "god mackenzie." he says, getting up. "yea, i know my life is messed up. but don't 'oh my god' me, you're frikin messed up too, and yes i'm talking about you and sophia." i tell him with every single drop of anger left in me. "can we not talk about that. like what even is your problem? you tell me 'we're just friends Johnny' but then you get jealous of my girlfriend? so what is your problem!?" he speaks, immitating my voice and distancing himself. i'm actually slowly realising that he's right. i do say that and get jealous but only because-. only because-. i-i don't have a reason? "exactly." he says after a while. do i, mackenzie francis ziegler, have a bad reputation? no way. not possible. i slowly move myself and sit next to him, letting my legs dangle off the bed and sway slowly. "i'm sorry alright." i whisper looking at him, he looks back at me and we make quick contact, he looks down and sighs.

"you hurt me, you know that right? and i want you to know that everything i did, wasn't intentional. i can't explain anything to you right now but mackenzie listen to me, i've never stopped liking you. as much as i want to, i can't because you just-, you-, i can't even describe it. that's how bad it is. but hey, i'm the monster here right? i'm the bad guy in this whole thing. i know about the thing's you say to lauren about me and they hurt. because just remembering that we, we were best friends once makes my heart ache. how do you think i felt when you started dating hayden? and now brandon? thanks for that by the way. it's like it never ends since kindergaten." he rants leaving me speechless. did i really make him feel this way?

"i-i"

"don't. don't lie to me because i can't take it anymore." he interrupts placing his face on his hands again. without any regret, i place my arms around him and hug him, inhaling his scent and crying on his shoulder. he doesn't pull back, we simply sit there, hugging each other like it felt like the very last time it was going to happen.

a/e: had major writers block :,)