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chapter 22-Fire in me

Oh yea.. I totally forgot about the tree.

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I was taken out of thought by Lauren who had come into the room running.

"What?.."i ask not realising she was looking at the smashed glass that spread all over the floor just like a carpet would.

"It's like you want her to hate you." she replies going into my drawer and taking Mackenzie's hoodie out of it

"Wh-"

"I'm doing it so she won't come back here and see you, you've turned into a self obsessing monster Johnny. Just like the girl you call girlfriend" and with that she leaves the room leaving me to drop on my bed letting tears drop, guys cry too maybe quietly but we do.

KENZIE'S POV

"You should r--really get home" I loved his company but he wasn't the guy I wished was holding me close

"and when you do text me alright?" i say but he looks at me with a disappointed look

"I can't leave you like this" he exclaims and I shake my head showing that I'm perfectly fine. He nods, gives me a hug ,smiles and leaves. I ought to thank him later for being here for me.

I stand up and limp towards my bed, quickly grabbing my phone on the way. I get my jacket, put it on and place me earphones into my ears after all this i need a 'walk'.

I walk out of my back door into my back garden and sit myself agaist an old tree that connected most houses to the park behind me. I scroll through my playlists stopping at eden+billie eilish. Placing my thumb over billie's song 'watch' and pressing play, I shift myself down against the tree and close my eyes. I could relate to the song but again I always let him back to put the fire out in my heart don't I..

"If we were meant to be, we would have been by now" I hum to myself only to be interrupted by mom and mads who came rushing through the back door yelling and waving her hands up and down, I remove my earphones and she helps me up pulling me into a huge hug leaving me confused.

"I was only gone for two hours an-"

"I told you to wait Kenz and you ignored me" mom says and maddie nods

"No. I promise I didn't I just had to come and talk to John about the-- performance." she looks up at the tree and smiles pointing to the carving that was slowly fading out, you could barely read it. I giggle and she smiles once more

"I remember that day like it was yesterday , he was making fun of my new stage name" I laugh and they join

"i miss it, him the unproblematic john"

"people change" maddie snaps back at me leaving me very confused.

"Let's go in honey its cold" I nod and start limping back, she stops me and asks. I simply say the same thing i told Brandon but she doesn't believe me at first until I convienced her more.

"We need to talk after" maddie affirms going up to her room

"Someone came looking for you too" she smiles again. what's with the smiles geez, a blond girl comes hopping towards me and hugging me

"HI OH MY " i chuckle and she giggles hugging me like it's the very last time. I hug Ashley who came too and then go up to my room with Brynn because mom and Ashley have important stuff to speak about...

"So?" she says hoping something would come out of me

"Well me and him fought again which is great" she shakes her head

"do you know what love is kenz?" she asks leaving me confused i shake my head slightly and she sighs

"i don't either but it doesn't give me a reason to take it for granted so y--ou shouldn't either.. he loves you why don't you see it. since you were 4 years old, 4 kenzie, 4. it's not right what he's doing to you but it doesn't make it right for you to do the same."

"But I-"

"I'm moving again but back to arizona.. tomorrow." my heart stopped for a quick second ,my thoughts dropped, my eyes teared up and my stomach scruntched itself up into a ball i was going to be sick.

"b--but you can't! you can't!" I drop down into her arms

"you can't leave me again y-you mean so much to me." i say making each word quieter. she starts crying and hugs me for a while

"i know you're going through s--so much. I asked my mom for us to leave later but she wouldn't listen to me she wouldn't" her tears drop onto my hair, it's the last time i'll hold her for a while. she's keeping me alive and if you saw our texts maybe you'd see why.

"BRYNN" a voice calls out from downstairs, I look at her and shake my head telling her repeatedly to not go, she lets go of my hand and walks out the room saying

"remember what i told you okay?" she wipes her tears and walks out with her crutches. It's like the other half of my soul had been ripped apart and left scattered on the ground.

"kenz?" i wipe my tears and sit up

"maddie?"

"we need to talk"

"just drop it on me, i can take another bomb. I bet you're moving too" i say sarcastically but she stays quiet, I look at her in denial but she sighs

"when?" i question holding tears back

"in two days i mean college is calling my name" she chuckles but gets serious

"i had to tell you now, im not going to be home a lot from today" she hugs me but i dont hug her back. my heart had gone bitter cold and pitch black with no sign of colour anywhere

"oh. so tell me what did i ever do to you to deserve this huh? GO ON TELL ME" she was confused I could tell but I continued and I honestly regret it so much

"JUST GET OUT" i yell at her and with another sigh she walks out the door and shuts it

it's going to be a long lonely night..

a/n: late upload i know sorry, holiday season is a busy time i didnt have any spare time. check out my friend's original story "sorry not sorry" by jonestly

qotd: "you're a rose in the field where wolves walk"