In The Place to be {Anthony Ramos x reader}

Chapter 34 - I am ruined

I woke up the next morning felling a lot happier than I have been. I got changed and headed for the bathroom. When I was done getting cleaned up I went to the kitchen where Nathan sat eating. "Mornin' how did you sleep?" He asked politely with a smile. "Good thanks." I said and smiled back. A plate of food was already set out for me so I dug in. "What shall we do today?" I asked. "A few friends of mine wanted to meet up for drinks later, you down?" He said while standing up and taking both plates to the sink. "Sure, I haven't drank in a while." He nodded and we decided to watch a movie. About half way through the movie he asked, "Hey, aren't you in that musical Hamlet?" "Hamilton." I corrected him and nodded. "Aw sweet." He simply said and pulled out his phone. He typed fast and sooner or later he set the phone down and we continued watching.

Ant's POV
I woke up to Phillip crying. I walked tiredly to his room and got him. "Hey buddy...its ok im here now." I took him to the kitchen and gave him a bottle. When he finished we sat on the couch. "M..mu...m" Phillip tried to say. "I miss her too bud. She'll come back I promise." Tears rolled down my face and Phillip reached for my cheek. I pulled him closer and he grabbed my tear stained cheek. I smiled and choked out a laugh. "Du bu AH." Pip said. I giggled as he tried to speak. Y/N still hadn't texted me back so I left her alone. "You look just like me. My freckles, my eyes, but your mother's nose and lips. Your perfect. Just like her." I said while hugging Pip.

Y/N's POV
It was late and I threw on some comfortable but casual clothes. "Ready?" Nathan said, I nodded and we walked out the door. "The bar isn't to far of a walk." He said. "Alright." We walked the streets until we got to a small bar. We walked in and almost immediately were waved over by two other guys. We walked to the booth and sat down. "So this is the one in Hamilton huh?" One of them spoke. Thats who he texted. Nathan nodded. "Cool, nice to meet you im Josh. This is Kenneth, or Ken." "Nice to meet you both, im Y/N." We ordered our drinks and talked for a bit. The waitress handed me a beer and I pressed the bottle to my lips and let the cold liquid flow down my throat. It stung a bit but I got used to it. When I finished that, I ordered whiskey. "Hold on, I have to use the bathroom." I said before sliding out of the booth. I went into the bathroom and stared into the mirror. I missed Ant. Maybe I should've left. But I didn't. I walked out and sat back down. I took a sip. "Huh, tastes a little weird... not like I remember." I said but shrugged it off and downed the whiskey. Then, black. It went dark. It was quiet and dark. Then I woke up in a room. Intoxicated, unstable and drugged. Nathan stood over me as I laid on the bed. I was naked and so was he. "No...please..." I begged unable to do anything else because I was so weak. "Shhh..." he shushed me and then he pushed himself inside of me. Tears streamed down my cheeks. "N-No stop please..." I choked out. He did it for what felt like hours. Then he went to bed and left me on there, defenseless, ruined, helpless. I sobbed softly as I stumbled to my feet. I felt dirty, like a whore. I threw on clothes, anything that would cover me. I packed my things and looked at my phone. 10:55. It was late, but that didn't stop me. I wobbled to the window, opened it, and hopped out. It wasn't a far drop, a foot or so but I did lose my balance and fall. Tears flooded my face now. I stumbled and wept as I walked back home.