Trying to reach you- Jungkook ff (COMPLETED)

Chapter Forty-Two: White noise

JUNGKOOK'S POV

Six months...

Six dreadful months. We've experience being emotionally unstable for these past months up until we got used to it. We conquered our emotions and worked hard to keep strong. We went back to school after the big fuzz, none of them mentioned about the incident, nor did they bother us again. All of them apologized for their mistakes and promised to leave us in peace.

Everything went well after that, we were able to balance school and work. We debuted by the way. We knew Zia would have wanted this to happen if she was here, she would be proud if she saw our stage. I can imagine it, those cresent eyes and the proud smile that would appear on her face.

The hyungs, most especially Yoongi hyung, Namjoon hyung and J-hope hyung, took the burden of the group. They've become very busy with composing songs, but they never forgot to visit Zia. Loads of their composed songs became a hit. One of them is the song "I need you". This song was dedicated to Zia by the way. Yoongi still loved Zia with all his heart, but he didn't dare to come between us. He just wanted to show his love, even only at certain ways he knew he could. I admire him for his faithfulness as well as his way of giving importance to our friendship. The night we got drunk was the last time we fought. We even became closer as brothers, we connect with each other since we both have the same feelings for her. We completely understand each others' situations.

By the way we moved back to our old dorm and always come home there. Pd-nim didn't mind it though, he said we can comeback to the company dorm anytime we like. He helped us cope up for the past months to develop our mood into its normal state.

Jin hyung still acted as our 'mom' in the group. He still cooked food for us,  helped keeping our dorm clean and all. He also became more caring, not that he didn't before, but we saw how much he cared for this group and he was afraid to see it again fall apart like how it did with what happened to Zia. He also got used to his routine in leaving a place for Zia at the table, as well as setting aside Zia's part of the food. He even went far to cook her favorite food, saying that she would be happy to join us if she saw it. At first it worsen our mood, but eventually we got used to it. I guess it was his way of coping up.

J-hope hyung tries his best to lighten the mood of bangtan. After he went on rampage at school, the 'Jennie incident', he promised to never lose his self again. Quite frankly, he feared himself right after we got home, he said the adrenaline of harming someone right there and then was something he couldn't explain, nor control. He moped for a while at first then came back to being the sunshine of the group.

Taehyung and Loriel gotten quite strong by the way. They became the king and queen of campus. People shipped them so much for being the most charismatic duo, many feared them too when they got pissed. What a strange duo this two were. But, both of them claimed that Zia and I still held the position of the power couple. They always mention her name in their talks and got reminded of her when they got to see something related to her. They are still loyal to their friendship with Zia like J-hope hyung. The three are crazy when put together, she should have seen how hilarious they were at times. It was certainly fun to watch.

Speaking of which, some people also encountered change within these six months. Zia's dad came home a week after the drama that happened at school, he finally get to fix his work in U.S. and set a branch here where he can work closely from home. He was like Jimin, but much more kind and reserved. But when he saw Zia's condition his walls fell apart, he truly treasure his daughter, yet it was tragic when he came home with her being in a coma. I felt bad for him. He planned so much for their future that's why he endured being away from his family to earn money for their needs. I admire the man for his actions. It takes so much control in self to do what he did.