Trying to reach you- Jungkook ff (COMPLETED)

Chapter Thirty-Six: Taken

JIMIN'S POV

I felt shocked. All emotion fought against each other as I absorb the twisted information that Zia uttered for the past few minutes. Few words, but it felt like a pile of bricks were placed on my shoulders. I feel suffocated in this room. Knowing I am the reason for all of this... I just can't take it.

I stood up and made my way to Zia, she looked like she wanted to apologize, but it pains me to see that she's doing it instead of me. Ikissed her forehead and muttered and apology, before making my way out of the room.

I kept my face straight, hiding my emotions as I passed by Mom in the living room. She asked if everything was okay because she heard us screaming with each other. I didn't reply though, or rather I can't. My lips are quivering as much as I tried to hide my emotions in front of her. Not saying a word I walked out of the door and straight to my car, that was sent by the staff I was with earlier. I drove off without knowing where I should go.

Angry tears streamed down my face as I thought of everything she said.

I was the cause.

I put her in danger.

I hurt HER.

I slammed my hand on the stirring wheel and screamed my lungs out. My throat hurts for doing it, but I couldn't careless because frustration and anger gor the best of me.

I did my best to protect her, but I was dumb enough not to know that I was the reason behind all her suffering. What a fucking hypocrite.

Years passed ever since it started and I didn't even get to the point of knowing such crucial information. I felt guilt wash over me. The precious person in my life that I wanted to protect with all my life is again suffering under my hands.

The look she gave me. I never saw her look at me with those eyes, full of hatred and disgust. It was my fault after all, I can't blame her for being mad at me when she had the right to be.

I passed by the bridge, knuckles turning white as I gripped hard on the stirring wheel. I suddenly remembered those long red lines on her wrist. She have tried killing herself many times without me knowing. My precious sister almost took her life today without me knowing. I felt ashamed, worthless even. I haven't done enough to be with her and make her happy. If I could turn back time I would have taken all that blows on myself, just to keep her safe. I love my sister that much, I wouldn't regret a single thing even if I died in her stead.

I let out a frustrated sigh. How cruel can this world be? Playing with the lives of innocent people who loved each other very much would be the most horrible thing to experience. Why can't we just live in peace? We even did as far as flying away to prevent Zia from experiencing the pain inflicted to her, not only in the physical aspect, but also emotionally. Though it doesn't seemed to be an enough action to get away from it. I don't see why Zia had to suffer all of these. All she was is a kind, loving, and jolly person.

Now that I think about it, it was the first time she raised her voice at me. I'm upset, not because she got mad, but because she only told me the reason now. She held it all for so long that it caused her to snap. I feel disappointed in myself that I was not able to dig deeper in the situation. Then maybe, just maybe I could have saved her earlier from all these.

I've reached the seaside and decided stay there for a while. With a plastic filled with beer cans, which I bought from a convinient store nearby, I sat down on the sand and opened completely downing the beer in one shot.